bigman316

it is so rare that i can write a blog when i am actually happy, or things are going well in my life, or i just don't have anything much to complain about in general. this of course is not one of blogs......i hate my life on so many levels right now, i cannot begin to describe it. i am currently depressed as hell, to the point where doing much of anything simply hurts. my mind is all kinds of mixed up with all kinds of bad thoughts. i fear that i may end up in the hospital today, i don't like the hospital, but if it keeps me well and safe for a couple of days, then, i guess that is what i need to do. i guess i just need some happy thoughts from my friends, my true, i don't know what my life would be like without you friends, you all know who you are. i will keep you posted as to how my day turns out, if you don't hear anything from me for a day or two, then you know where i am. peace, d.