bigman316

so today was easter.......for alot of people a very meaningful religous holiday. today was also one of my cousin's birthday. soooooooooo....that meant i got to travel forty-five minutes over the hills and thru the woods to my cousin's house, for the purpose of spending "quality time" with my family. my cousins are really the only immediate family i have left. both of my parents have passed away, i have two sisters that haven't spoken to me in almost ten years. i love my cousins, don't get me wrong. the thing that frustrates me is they do not understand me at all. or maybe they don't want to, i am not sure. the fact that i am an addict in recovery who struggles with mental illness doesn't help matters much. on the topic of depression i have been told that all i really need to do is cheer up and things will be fine. great....i am cured.....awesome. it is hard for me to really talk to them about anything that is going on with me. today was very hard because i haven't been feeling well for the past several days. finding the energy to drive over there today was tough, i just kind of hung out, stayed mostly in the background, which was easy because they had a houseful. i talked with my two of my younger cousins, krista and rachel. it was krista's birthday, and her and i have always been fairly close. in two weeks i am taking rachel to a concert in philadelphia, so we talked about that. at the end of the day i went home, very much wore out. i should be good on "quality time" until about the fourth of july. or something. i hope everyone had a wonderful weekend, i hope folks got to spend their own versions of quality time with friends and family. take care, peace, d.