biglleite

So its been.. whats? 6 months? 7 months? maybe a little bit more or less... but something like that... Its funny how you don't realize the changings when you're inside of it... staying away from SG for that period and now being a member again (thanks to someone who gave me a membershipo which I'm still guessing it was Kiley...) I see gals who turned women, hopefuls who became oficial suicide girls, girls who once had their hair colerful, had em blonde for a while now they're black, or girls who had black hair now are blonde, some became mothers, or are about to become, some chubby chick lost weigth and is slim now (I liked her better when she had a little bit more of fat....), the model I once fell in love with is gone, so many other joined the "army"...
so whats the point? the point is... we're always changing, fixing ourselves in the world we're living... and sometimes we don't even realize everything had changed... 2 years ago I was in the US... delivering pizza, making coffe, going to gigs, dating whoever wanted to date me and also dating people I really liked to be with... charing a house with a friend of mine (which is now living in Florida), eating pizza and drinoing coffe all day long, buying all the CDs I always wanted to own, gettin tattooed by really good tattoo artists for a cheap price, dressing the way I wanted and nobody would give a damn about it, dealing with Sophia's mother until I couldnt take it anymore... that was me two years ago.. in the US...
I came back to Brazil...I wanted to live in Sao Paulo, but ended up coming back to Fortaleza... it's way different here from what it is was in Massachusetts... but hey... you've gotta adapt yourself to the place you live.. you can't make the place you live adapt to you... no way! so thats what I did... well.. as far as I could.. I keep gettin tattoos and sometimes I dress the way I want to... even though people will look at me like Im coming from another planet... whatever... but then thinking about my life... which I keep complaining about it... since I came back, I already had a (all together) 370% raise on my income, Im engaged getting ready to marry, I now have the dog I always wanted to have (engliosh bulldog named Cash), Im saving money to buy my own house, I have a pretty decent car, I go to the beach, I spend loads of time with my family, I let my beard grow, Im have a few extra pounds, Im drinkin whisky which I ued to hate, I listen to much more music stules than I used to, Im working like a motherfucker, but at this time I love what Im doing... so yeah.. things had change to me... they had... and they gettin better... the only yhing that havent change (yet) is my distance from my daugther Sophia... but it will change when its time to... so things change, if we give our contribution they will change for better.. if not... I'm sorry hun!
It's goo to be back here... it's good to live the life... it's good to realize things change...