So...LA kicks my town's ass.
Sure, we have:
no traffic
no smog
no lines
no noise
But, last weekend, LA had me standing in my buddy's bar with his ex-girlfriend, watching all manner of poorly-planned nipple-ringed debauchery and cover-band song-butchering...thinking...
"This shouldn't be appealing. But...
I've never felt so at home."
Maybe the situation felt right because I'd missed hanging out with my best friend (SG "suckmykiss"). If you've ever had a friend that was as close as a sibling, you understand what I mean. Especially if your sibling ever viewed acting/film as a life's purpose and understood why Jon Spencer quite likely is The Second Coming...
LA also symbolizes my metamorphosis into a complete adult person. In the last year, I:
1) Chose to leave a girl I truly loved for two years because I knew we wouldn't make good life partners.
2) Went through several months of therapy and confronted pain I never knew I had, let alone repressed.
3) Began to realize who I really was and what that person's place could be in the world.
4) Decided I'd never sacrifice my happiness for another person.
5) Started acting again and fell in love with art.
6) Decided I would stake my life on the belief that I can create art that matters and makes a difference in my life and the lives of others...
"COLIN'S LIFE"
Int. Colin's Future Studio City Apt. (Night)
LA gazes into Colin's eyes, holding back tears,
angry at him for staying away, but wanting to
run to him.
Colin: "LA...you complete me!"
*silence*
Colin and LA hold each other tightly, sobbing as
they embrace.
Six months from now, I'll leave my
perfect job in the perfect little town
where I grew up. The town where my
entire family lives. A town where I feel
like the mayor because I know everyone
and can address them by name. Where we
average three murders per year.
I'll give thanks for 27 years of such
peace and happiness. Then, I'll take
this safety and security and give it back
to my loved ones, get in the car, and
drive away...
Because it all could end tomorrow!
Sure, we have:
no traffic
no smog
no lines
no noise
But, last weekend, LA had me standing in my buddy's bar with his ex-girlfriend, watching all manner of poorly-planned nipple-ringed debauchery and cover-band song-butchering...thinking...
"This shouldn't be appealing. But...
I've never felt so at home."
Maybe the situation felt right because I'd missed hanging out with my best friend (SG "suckmykiss"). If you've ever had a friend that was as close as a sibling, you understand what I mean. Especially if your sibling ever viewed acting/film as a life's purpose and understood why Jon Spencer quite likely is The Second Coming...
LA also symbolizes my metamorphosis into a complete adult person. In the last year, I:
1) Chose to leave a girl I truly loved for two years because I knew we wouldn't make good life partners.
2) Went through several months of therapy and confronted pain I never knew I had, let alone repressed.
3) Began to realize who I really was and what that person's place could be in the world.
4) Decided I'd never sacrifice my happiness for another person.
5) Started acting again and fell in love with art.
6) Decided I would stake my life on the belief that I can create art that matters and makes a difference in my life and the lives of others...
"COLIN'S LIFE"
Int. Colin's Future Studio City Apt. (Night)
LA gazes into Colin's eyes, holding back tears,
angry at him for staying away, but wanting to
run to him.
Colin: "LA...you complete me!"
*silence*
Colin and LA hold each other tightly, sobbing as
they embrace.
Six months from now, I'll leave my
perfect job in the perfect little town
where I grew up. The town where my
entire family lives. A town where I feel
like the mayor because I know everyone
and can address them by name. Where we
average three murders per year.
I'll give thanks for 27 years of such
peace and happiness. Then, I'll take
this safety and security and give it back
to my loved ones, get in the car, and
drive away...
Because it all could end tomorrow!
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btw, i looked at my pics again just now, and i look kinda old.....did i ever mention that i'm uh......i'm.....i'm.....37?
that explains the worn out look. the harsh lighting doesn't help either. okay, confession is over. hahaha
you, however, you don't look a day over 27!
oh, and i also have that bunny/pancake pic that i found somewhere on the internet....