bigdamhero

So i just got back from Cedar Point.. I hate heights... ... ... i totally lost my voice last night and finally started being able to "talk" again right now... it's actually kind of coiol though my voice is like an octave or two lower and is raspy, kinda want it to stay this way haha. Im rading this book called Angels & Demons and it's amazing... it brings up the possibility of science proving that God and science can coexist, a possibility i hope and pray is revealed in my lifetime. I am a Christian, always have been and plan to always be... even if i didnt think God existed i'd do my best to live like the J man cuz he rocked... however... I am a doubter, i beleive what i see, touch, feel, hear and know...this makes it tougher and tougher to keep on beleiving as i age. The details of my faith no longer matter right now, the reasons are faded into grey, but the idea of God himself... i feel myself slipping into agnosticism but i'm fighting with all my strength to keep my head above the water. Every thing i beleive can be explained by science and biology, but there is the chance that this is the case because God works within the confines of the laws of nature he himself put in place... everything can be easily explaiend by both science and faith.... i wish i could take a break from my mind and just see what i would really do/believe without the influence of my life as a preacher's kid, would i never have accepted my faith... or would i be less icnlined to give up on it...