Ok so heres the low down on whats going on...
Before I really begin this is a "heres whats going down", yes, but its also...for me, so I can step back and go "what the fuck am I doing?"
Im in love with a girl, far as I can tell..madly in love. She has red hair, and a pretty face, and a nice body (that screams potential and shes going to exercise until its the way SHE wants it to be. Which is awesome). She makes me smile more than anyone has in a very long time, I didnt think id ever fall this hard for a girl ever again, but I have. So..check, shes amazing. Theres a couple problems. One is: shes leaving, shes going to Iraq for a year, not really that big of a deal other than shes gone for a really long time and I have to worry about her. The second problem, and its the worst: Shes back with her ex fiance..well now FIANCE. she put a ring on last week, and she told me last night that they "are back together".
This all stems from the 2 weeks in Korea I assume, where they saw each other a few times and now they are going to give it another try. Her and I were never officially together and now we never will be. Of course I get the "if I weren't back with James" and "If you had more rank". I know, I know. My heart hurts every time she mentions him, and she does it unconsciously, so it just always comes out, like she thinks it wont bother me, but it does. Im in pain almost all the time, the only time im not is when I stare into her eyes and she stares at me, and we just smile. I found it, my "happy place", but now its leaving me, and being taken from me all at the same time. I know what I have to do, and that is to just walk away, back off, cut sling load..just be friends, if that. Its not working, and it never will. Shes to in love with a man who; and I quote: "Ruined my life."
If I had to guess he just sucks at life, he was married with a child when they met, he got divorced, then they got engaged. The way I figure, he just wants to go back to something he knows and understands, and someone he can control. Again, straight from her, "he can be very controlling"...oh and "jelous". I always say it <b>"How can you trust someone who cheated on another person with YOU."<\b> Marriage is as far as it gets, how can someone cheat on there spouse and then you trust them enough to be loyal to you forever??? And then during the engagement, they cheat! Yep, sound like you found a real winner. But hey, who am I to judge, you say hes changed? You say its going to be different this time? I told you, I just want you to be happy, but know that I want you to be happy with ME.
Love is blind, and my retinas burned out weeks ago.
Before I really begin this is a "heres whats going down", yes, but its also...for me, so I can step back and go "what the fuck am I doing?"
Im in love with a girl, far as I can tell..madly in love. She has red hair, and a pretty face, and a nice body (that screams potential and shes going to exercise until its the way SHE wants it to be. Which is awesome). She makes me smile more than anyone has in a very long time, I didnt think id ever fall this hard for a girl ever again, but I have. So..check, shes amazing. Theres a couple problems. One is: shes leaving, shes going to Iraq for a year, not really that big of a deal other than shes gone for a really long time and I have to worry about her. The second problem, and its the worst: Shes back with her ex fiance..well now FIANCE. she put a ring on last week, and she told me last night that they "are back together".
This all stems from the 2 weeks in Korea I assume, where they saw each other a few times and now they are going to give it another try. Her and I were never officially together and now we never will be. Of course I get the "if I weren't back with James" and "If you had more rank". I know, I know. My heart hurts every time she mentions him, and she does it unconsciously, so it just always comes out, like she thinks it wont bother me, but it does. Im in pain almost all the time, the only time im not is when I stare into her eyes and she stares at me, and we just smile. I found it, my "happy place", but now its leaving me, and being taken from me all at the same time. I know what I have to do, and that is to just walk away, back off, cut sling load..just be friends, if that. Its not working, and it never will. Shes to in love with a man who; and I quote: "Ruined my life."
If I had to guess he just sucks at life, he was married with a child when they met, he got divorced, then they got engaged. The way I figure, he just wants to go back to something he knows and understands, and someone he can control. Again, straight from her, "he can be very controlling"...oh and "jelous". I always say it <b>"How can you trust someone who cheated on another person with YOU."<\b> Marriage is as far as it gets, how can someone cheat on there spouse and then you trust them enough to be loyal to you forever??? And then during the engagement, they cheat! Yep, sound like you found a real winner. But hey, who am I to judge, you say hes changed? You say its going to be different this time? I told you, I just want you to be happy, but know that I want you to be happy with ME.
Love is blind, and my retinas burned out weeks ago.