Its funny, I have these dreams all the time lately of what I wish my life was really like. Its almost as if I pray so hard, and wish so much my life was better that my sub conscious mind allows my self a false sense of relief by turning these fantasies I day dream about, into all I dream about. The biggest example is that of her, I dream she comes to me telling me how shes sorry and I'm all she wants, and were just happy. Or how everything changes at work, and life is just good. Its kind of sad..actually, it just makes me sad, because then I wake up, and nothing has changed.