bigbuddha

well... we have had a buttload of showings, and 5 more saturday..... but better yet we have had a legitamate offer! not quite what we asked for, but only about 1,500 less thank god P.T. Barnum was right

i am still not out of the woods, i havent been able to pay any of my own bills in the last two months, and my account and the house account are both in the red, today was payday and i will be making one back to 0 and the other one will be in the + by a 100 things are getting very tuff right now, we still have a very very overdue oil bill, and we only have a quarter tank left... once it is empty there goes the heat until we can find a spare $500, which we will need anyway before we sell the house, because we need to make sure its full for the new owners... So i must go another two weeks of only having money for gas to get me to work, i havent eaten since thursday morning and wont see a meal till tommorow where my neighbor invited me over to dinner for helping her son get a job. I have never wanted to be homeless more then i do right now ... i haven't been updating this thing because i just didnt have anything postive to say lately. This is not a call for help, i just need a place to vent right now, i can't believe how close this is getting... no way in hell we are gonna make the next mortgage payment, and now we may just not have too.... i want to tear my hair out, and its long now so that is possible... i just need to say that i am such deep shit right now with credit cards etc etc etc, that i think i have finaly stopped falling and just hit bottom... the bounce hopefully will come soon, because i just can't live like this anymore.
I found an animal rescue that will take moose, he is old but pretty healthy, hopefully they won't put him down
i am gonna miss the furry fuck, i sat crying with him the other day and had to apogize to him for not being able to afford a place for the both of us, he just sat there and licked my feet as always, i even had to bounce a check to get him his check up and nails clipped, they started making a clickty sound where ever he walked, and we have carpet.

as for work, the girl i trained before i went out west just got promoted to dayside, they told me because it was that they need me to train all the new people that will be comming in for seasonal help.... so i missed another promotion because i worked my ass off, ok it wasnt a promotion but a lateral move, but the person who works the dayside shift aways becomes the Caf TC.....

i need a joint, sadly there is no sign of trees around, good night everyone... im gonna go have a mental break down now, drink my boulion cube soup and catch a couple hours of sleep before i need to be up and out of the house at 8 am for more showings before work

peace, love and sleeping bags
me
For I am a rain dog too


p.s. if i do survive this, the first thing im doing is taking you all out to dinner, Sushi anyone?