No...not @bloghomework, however a little more about me!
I can't even explain what kind of mood I am in. It's unreal to me how I can be one thing and then something completely different the next...this is the life of a person with anxiety and depression. I've accepted it as a real thing after years of denial.
When you have these kinds of issues, empathy should be the last thing on your mind. You can't handle yourself let alone other people's issues, right? However, it's not truthfully in me to let people feel terrible. It can fill me with anxiety just thinking I am not at least attempting to help. Especially when it comes to people and their own self worth. It's very important to me that feel they are worth everything! I don't even try to pretend to KNOW anything about everything, no one can. I have however developed myself into a listener. Some of the worst so-called "empathisers" define themselves as full of intention to help when all they want to do is hear themselves give advice. I've always found when people are hurting, the best thing to do is to let them vent to the point of drawing their own conclusions. You can nudge and suggest an imbiguous way to help but you should never tell a person what to do.
The down side of this empathy thing is it leads a person already filled with plenty of anxiety in themselves, to twist and gnarl their already weak mind into more anxiety. One could say, it's an addiction. To empathise with a person IS my crack...my drug...my dependence, if you will. I need it. My life feels unfulfilled when I don't think that I am doing enough. Twisted, right?
Oh well, I try not to let my silly anxieties get in the way but sometimes it's a little more difficult than I think it's going to be. I will keep rolling with the punches and move along as I do. Being here on SG has been pretty awesome because I have a better avenue to vent myself. FB kind of sucks because there are too many opposing views and those "empith-ivisors" I was talking about earlier. Here I can say what I want and not be judged and no one says anything that is negative. I don't look for people to only agree with what I have to say. I don't mind debate or suggestions. That's not what I'm saying, it's not good to only hear the you have the best ideas in the world! Because my way or anybody's way, for that matter, is never the only way. Anxiety in a person is a tricky little twat-sicle, in that respect.
Anyway, I've said enough for now...I hope everyone has an amazing day and the week coming ahead. The world needs a hug right not, especially in Chez Paris with the events that took place over the weekend...
Be safe and be well, Paris! 💖💖💖
