bidenz

I thought she was the one. But now, after talking to a drunk one and a sober one, I've found shes not right. Yeah, there will always be that place in my heart for her, sure I could see us together at times, but recently, i can't fucking stand her. seriously. maybe that's normal after a break, not to be mistaken for a break-up; nor a "break" like those fucking middle schoolers do. no, this was simply a break. we talked, i misinterpreted what she said, i guess you can say we both led each other on. On a completely different and irrelevant note, i have noticed my punctuation has been here and there, i kinda like it. Anyhow.

God damn it. I fucking hate swirling emotions. There can't be just one time where it all falls into place like a perfect game of tetris? yeah, didnt think so. fuck it.

There was her, and now out of it comes someone else. Problem is. I dont know. Hell i've gone farther with her than anyone else. I wouldnt say i'm afraid of commitment, just a distance feels weird. to be honest, I dont know if i have the will to allow the space to exist. Not that i'm one to cheat or anything, by the way, fuck those who cheat, i just dont feel comfortable with a 4 hour travel time.

thanks. k. bye.