bi_photo_chick

Oh Lordy be...the phone conversation from hell again with my mother. She is so narrow minded it just drives me nuts. It's always the same conversation, too. When are ya gonna change your hair?...it makes you look to tough and unladylike...you look like a dyke. When are you gonna move closer to home? Why do you have to wear all that makeup? You know you are a mother you need to set a good example for your daughter. Why do you have to play pool so much at a bar? are you an alcohoilic..are you on drugs?
Good lord Mother why do you have to be so damn narrow minded & controlling? For god sake I am 32 yrs old..married & have my own family...give me a break. God love her I know she means well but geez give it a rest. So what I have short spiked hair, and I am bi-sexual (good lord if she knew that one she'd shit her pants). So what I shoot pool (and I am good at it) doesn't mean I get drunk every time I go out. No I am not on drugs unless you include coffee & cigarettes..& the ocassional...well we won't go there. So what my daughter thinks I'm cool and she loves me the way I am. I am teaching her to be a strong confident woman with her own thoughts, feelings, desires, & style. What is so wrong with wanting to be myself? What is so wrong with expressing myself through my hair, tattoos, & the way I dress, & who I hang out with? I have a lot of surpressed anger and resentment from my childhood that is finally coming out. I don't want to be like everyone else...I want to have my own thoughts, my own feelings, my own dreams, & desires. Why would I want to move back (or close to home) when you are so damn controlling...why the hell do you think I left anyway?
Ok I feel a bit better now...just wish I could say all that to her for once in my life...instead of ok Mom...I am fine Mom...you have nothing to worry about Mom. Oh well its off to work I go now...see yall later