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bhavok

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Wednesday Oct 18, 2006

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Today I'm just in a weird place it seems.. Tired, yes.. Ambitious, yes.. Ambitious but yet with nothing to accomplish.. Just be.. Sit, stare out the window, sip coffee, flip channels.. I've been ambitious for along time, but it feels like I'm waiting for something to come along in life to accomplish... My routine of everyday life is so redundant it's almost like it's a bad sitcom that tv executives keep on the air hoping for the reviews to sky rocket with a new episode, but it's the samething over and over.. Blah comes to mind alot anymore..

Yesterday, I had gone to the dentist, and the girl that cleaned my teeth for me, we knew eachother from awhile ago.. She used to work at the diner where everyone would go.. She had told me that she couldn't believe that she had worked 10 years of her life away there.. And when I left, I got to thinking about things.. And only 5 years ago, I was graduating high school.. My 5 year reunion is in December.. And it's weird to think that only 3 years ago everyone I knew still existed.. You could go to the diner no matter what time, day, or weather condition, and you were guaranteed that someone you knew would show up.. Sit around talk about life, drink coffee, play cards, smoke cigs, we were teenagers without a cause basicly.. Now people are done or near finishing college, starting families, buying houses, popping out kids, getting married.. The kids some people had in high school are starting school now.. There is no need to go to that diner anymore.. Noone goes there, never have the time for it, or they just aren't around.. So now the transformation careless teenagers, into problematic adults begins.. Everyone goes to the bars now to drink away there problems.. Staying up all night drinking coffee, smoking cigs, playing cards is gone.. Now it's filled with alcohol and bills.. Funny how in 3 years things can change, drasticly..





On an updated note: I have been for the past year or so been in touch with a girl I went through school with and everything, we were pretty good friends then, and I have just found out that she has some type of rare, really aggressive cancer.. She's been through or is going through 40 weeks of cancer.. I'm not really sure how to react.. I'm naturally surprised of course, but, I'm kind of speechless.. She is definantly one of the sweetest girls I've ever known.. If you care to read her story here is the link: www.caringbridge.org/visit/cortneyglass
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toothpickmoe:
Damn, must've been a real issue.

Okay, I'm hopping in the shower. I feel like I'm covered in a layer of vodka.
Oct 18, 2006
toothpickmoe:
Have a great time getting wasted!
Oct 18, 2006

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