bhavok

So this weekend went just as I thought it would.. It completely sucked.. I had to work the midnight oil shift on saturday night, so I got done work @ 7 am.. I went and picked up the birthday cake for my brother, did all the shit I could do to help out.. And then it pisses me off seeing how we both have the same set of friends, how he has to go and treat me like complete shit after I just helped him do all this shit for the party.. A simple fucking thank you would of went a long way.. Instead he just insists on being a dick... And then my ex fiance was invited to the party and I never said 1 word to her.. After dealing with my family, I wasn't going to deal with whatever shit she would of had in store for me.. so I opted to just avoid her all together.. I'm going to leave and I hear behind her air compressed nail gun of a voice shoot through my head like a gun just went off " thanks for saying hi, I suppose your leaving ".. " Bye ".. and I walk out the door listening to Lamb of God.. Some subtle music to help the insanity.. So by this point, I had not slept since 9:30 the previous night, and I'm very irritable.. So I'm all pissed off feeling like this: , just wanting to explode with anger and frustration and just go off..


So after doing some thinking about where I've been recently, to where I want to be in a few months, to a year.. It has dawned on me that my life has been nothing a real life documentary of Phil Connors.. I wake up and instead of everyday being groundhog's day, it's just a horrible day all together without a buck tooth rat.. I do see my shadow alot and it tell's me to lay back down and go back to bed and sleep the day away because you don't want to relive yesterday.. Because yesterday sucked, well today isn't going to be much better.. But for now, some backround music..