Yesterday I read a great blog from @marlene on this topic .. I didnt know @missy was giving out weeklg blog topics but I think its a wonderful idea.
Well I think that it started with a tramatic event when I was 15. I was sexually assulted by a peer.To make matters worse my parents decided they ( as to not complicate things for them in thier workplace or personal lives) it was best to sweep this under the rug so to speak. One signal conversation laid out what plan they had made for MY best interest.Many things quickly followed the most notable of which was harrassment not only did I still have to walk the halls with this boy staring at me everyday.. his friends decided as cruel high school kids often do to make it their mission to ridcule me call me a slut throw things at me and even make up hateful songs about me in the halls. I was on my own and not mention The administration decided I needed to emergency transfers schools...so I did. As you can imgjne pretth rough somehow I pushed it down enough to hide my pain and have only In the last year have finally awoken from my emotional deadness & really started to make myself happy.
Then,
one day I was watching the I morning news a popluar comedian was being interviewed .. and she pulls up her shirt to reaveal that underneath she is head to toe tattooed but in dress clothes looked like a normal middle aged Chinese woman.she explained she harrnassed her pain into tattooing showing she had FULL control of her body.seeming making her abuser powerless.
What a great meassage!!! During the next few days I searched for something I could channel my time enerrgy and pain Into... i slowing started looking finding that all these beautiful women on intagram truely being out there .. then exploring the site wishing I had extra money to get a membership. But the more I saw the more I loved how liberated and free these woman were and how postive of a response they got from the community they were in was and i was envious! These were woman in control of thier bodies truely baring it all.I was so jealous no way could I ever compare to them.
A year earlier I had taken a boudoir shoot with a photographer friend to help build her portfolio. It was elegantly put together and i remember feeling so beautiful on camera feeling like wow thats me!! No denying the camera doesnt lie♥♥
So I called her up again and almost immediately shot the set "Afternoon Liberation" which is in memeber review now ;* go check it out if you havent yet.(even if you have seen its tottaly worth a second look ♡) I summited it literally as soon as I got them back.then I crossed my fingers and hoped...
To my surprise I was almost immediately got a response back that it would be going into memeber review.
And the day it did I felt so empowered by all the love and positivity flowing daily!! Not to mention the previous coulple months of waiting and getting aqaiuted with the sight and all you wonderful followers out there telling me how amazing I was everyday just for being MEE :))
This is the best possiable outcome I could imgine for myself it just seems ment to be I feel so in control and couldnt be happier with this descion and I can only hope ill continue meet and talk to even more of you! Even if I never go pink ill be incrediable grateful for this amazing gift I have been given from all you. I finally feel at peace. I love you all and I seriously cant wait to shoot another set and have that wonderful feeling again.
Goodnight babes ♡♡
