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Thursday Nov 23, 2006

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Yeah so much for that break. hjuh

ASL PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
ME FEMAYLE MALAY 13 YES YES?????
YOU WANT A CHAT ME NO????


Yeah so, my life is, idunno a bit fucked up i guess, but i keep loving it. Iwouldnt want it any other way, or i would, but i wouldnt. You know?
How ever. Yeah Im terribly sorry but you know, im just sayin, im sick. Very much so. More than i ever knew. Basicially... I get these weird thoughs n flashbacks from my childhood, that i havent talked to anyone about not even my shrinks even tho theyd probably need that information bad. Its about being like 6 years old and haveing a fucked up wiev of sexuallity, more than that i can not say, so yeah idunno, im very much fucked up. Always was.
Im gonna write a longass journal entry to like. Idunno...
Clear my head.

Yeah. So, i want all my PSW sets down cus like, yeah basicially i feel kinda grossed out by myself having these flashbacks thinkin that everything sexual i do these days or non sexual but lets face it, taking nudepics is just screaming for attention, please say im preeeetty you know, and like, im not gonna be all, "hell yes im so hot" but like it makes me feel pretty grossed out that theres a chanse people jerk off to my pics, and i didnt mind at first cus i kinda was being psycotic, and maybe probably am now as well, seing how im so fucking fucked up i keep thinkin but if i throw up maybe ill throw up the gross part of me and ill finally get clean but i dont wanna go thru that again, i dont wanna shove my fingers down my throat like 3 times a day just to feel pretty n clean. N like, i dont wanna go thru selfstaving again.


However. I guess... My impulsive side is the strongest at the moment but i really do control it and im pretty damn proud cus i havent hurt myself even tho i was very close to a few times. and yeah well, my insides are screaming and im gonna go buy some milka. My heads really hurting but im actually doing pretty good i think. So. yeah. cheers.
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ta2dmom:
I'm sorry hon.
xoxo
kiss
Nov 23, 2006
punknitemike:
i think you're very pretty! im thinking of ya! wink
Nov 23, 2006

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