bettydoll

I feel so good. I have so much energy, so much motivation. I just regret taking those sleepingpills, cus taking sleepingpills n not going to bed makes me kinda... wanna throw up. It kindof makes me dizzy. Otherwise everything is GREAT! Fantastic! Im accepting my age lol. Its KOOL to growup! Im sick of being a girl, now i wanna be a woman, with all that comes along with it. Even if it means i haveto stop buying all that hello Kitty crap im so hooked on, collecting my little ponys, and just being a retard in general. Its gonna be great. Ive also been thinkin that I wanna start a band. I just need bandmembers. I want a grrrlband. But I need GRRRLS, not GIRLS. I need chicks with attitude, not the ones with a finger in their mouth and an innocent look on their face. I Need loud grrrls, who can standup for themselves. Who knows that theyre better than that. Better than acting stupid just to get accepted.

And Im gonna start writing too. and, if anyone wishes to stay in contact with me, please msg me cus im thinkin about stop using sg, cus i dont like the attitude on some of the girls. now i know... its kindof stupid to close it down cus some girs are retards, but if i put it like this then. i found out about sg when i was 17. And it was my DREAM to become a Suicide Girl. But well... I grew up. And I got smarter, and I realized (surely, it took me a while ) That if I have to get undressed to get attention, well, its just not the attention im looking for. its been nice though.

Okay. Good and bad things about SG
+PSW
+The groups in general
+All the freinds I made
+The HOT design
+LUCE
+All the beauty

-The girls who who got the whole riotgrrrl thing all wrong
-The girls that for some odd reason think theyre "better" cus they dont have any clothes on
-The lack of sisterhood
-The 3mounth rule
-The fact that I put myself in such a vonerable situation as in lettiing people sitting at home JUDGEING my body, speaking their minds, sure, they were always nice, but its still fucking grossing me out,

Hope i didnt offend anyone. Atleast not anyone who shouldnt get offended. the thing is tho, that if i leave, idunno where to go. i like the groups here. especially the psw. and the comics one. ill find something out, dont worry tho, im not leaving just yet.