bettybruises

I love long weekends!

Wish I had more of them.

Wish I had a job that would allow me to spend as much time as I'd like doing derby related schtuff.

Wait this was supposed to be a non derby related blog...

[IMG]http://images.wikia.com/simpsons/images/c/c3/D'oh.jpg[/IMG]

That seems nearly impossible these days.
As much as I love it. I'm glad the season is coming to a close. I just finished a game last night that I went from being asked to be a guest Head NSO for a new league that shows a ton of promise (led by two of the skaters that I saw play and who made me want to skate a few years ago) to staffing the entire officials roster for their first bout, explaining to one of the girls what my opinions are on building an officials crew, selecting a head ref and on practice attendance requirements for officials and offering to help their crew once they begin to establish one

Actually, it was a ton of fun. The bout went well and the officiating went well, there were and always are places that could have used some improvement. I think the bout was a good one. I know the newer league won, but had no idea what the score was or how the game really went until I looked at the stats sheets today. It's funny. People think being an official means "you have the best seats in the house", but if you're actually doing your job, you never really see the game.

I just have a tendency to overcommit and am ready for a few months of downtime.
I need some me time.
I want to spend some more time painting and reading.
I will most likely back off quite a bit over the holidays and drop down on my attendance.

A very good friend, my closest friend in the derby community actually, recently asked me if I was going to continue on as Head Ref next year, which I thought was a funny question, but I realized what she meant. It takes a lot out of you. It kind of consumes you in a way, and I think the trick for me is that I need to not let it. I gotta learn how to say no sometimes. Of course I'll keep doing this as long as I can, and I imagine there is a chance at some point that the crew will outgrow me, and the position might be more suited to someone else, which is also fine.

Lately I keep finding myself wishing and wanting to try to skate again. Eventually I may be able to. As much as I love being an NSO and love teaching people and love doing what I do.

I still want to skate.
Even though I broke my ankle, went back and fractured my elbow.
I still wish I could skate
I know it may never be possible, but damn it I hate that. There is a part of me that feels so envious of the people who can, especially the ones it comes so easy to.

Sigh*

I'm happy with where I'm at, so don't take this as a whiney "poor me" bullshit blog. I guess I'm just frustrated cause that desire isn't dead and I don't really know that it ever will be...


This is so not the blog I set out to write. Haha.
Aw well, it needed to be said, at one time or another...