bettybruises

It's finally done, no more lobster fisherman for me. Today I erased his phone number and all messages from my phone, so I can't even contact the asshole anymore. Really, who would want to date a sea cockroach catcher anyways
I'm bummed still, hurt and angry, but i'll get over it. This relationship has been a serious head fuck and I am finally starting to tear all the remaining cobwebs out of my brain and belly. It's amazing how much shit you can put up with from another person because you care about them, and then when you finally decide it's time for it to be over, you find yourself wondering why you put up with it in the first place, because they were never worth the tiniest heart flutter in the beginning. I guess it's that little glimmer of hope that kicks our ass every once in a while, but without it we'd all be a bunch of jaded assholes with nothing to look forward to but a life of being bitter and alone. I'll take getting hurt and healing over the second. It's taken me this long to realize that it takes a stronger person allows themself to be vulnerable, than it does to close yourself off to any situation that could potentially hurt you. That's actually a sign of weakness, big walls surrounding a little chicken shit who is bitter and angry, but more than anything else, AFRAID. So I'll be angry and hurt for a while, but in the end I'll get over it and prepare myself to repeat the process, hopefully a little wiser about things the next time around
Still, this sucks ouch!