i don't know if anyone even reads this anymore.
probably not, but i just need to get so much off of my chest.
this week has been the week from hell.
i think i'm getting kicked out of my house.
that's not even the bad part though.
i honestly am beginning to think that i'm not worth loving or something.
i mean, every single relationship i've ever been in has left me broken.
i don't understand it at all.
i do everything in my power to make someone happy, but then out of nowhere i always end up being left behind and forgotten about.
i thought i had finally found someone who wasn't going to hurt me.
he promised he never would, i'd always be safe.
well, that period has passed and i'm back to where i always end up.
i have changed so many things to keep him, but it's still not working out.
its not good enough i guess.
i'm just not good enough.
i don't know, maybe it'll be for the best.
maybe i need some "me" time.
i really don't think i do..
i'm just gonna tell myself so it won't hurt as much.
who am i kidding, though.
the get-up kids put it best..
i ask each year
why am i here
begging you please
remember
i'd rather die than be alone
i wish i could be one of those girls who doesn't care.
one who when faced with these situations says:
"ehh whatever.. next!"
but i can't.
i could never do that.
i fall too hard and no one is ever there to catch me..
probably not, but i just need to get so much off of my chest.
this week has been the week from hell.
i think i'm getting kicked out of my house.
that's not even the bad part though.
i honestly am beginning to think that i'm not worth loving or something.
i mean, every single relationship i've ever been in has left me broken.
i don't understand it at all.
i do everything in my power to make someone happy, but then out of nowhere i always end up being left behind and forgotten about.
i thought i had finally found someone who wasn't going to hurt me.
he promised he never would, i'd always be safe.
well, that period has passed and i'm back to where i always end up.
i have changed so many things to keep him, but it's still not working out.
its not good enough i guess.
i'm just not good enough.
i don't know, maybe it'll be for the best.
maybe i need some "me" time.
i really don't think i do..
i'm just gonna tell myself so it won't hurt as much.
who am i kidding, though.
the get-up kids put it best..
i ask each year
why am i here
begging you please
remember
i'd rather die than be alone
i wish i could be one of those girls who doesn't care.
one who when faced with these situations says:
"ehh whatever.. next!"
but i can't.
i could never do that.
i fall too hard and no one is ever there to catch me..
broken_reality:
I've never tried to change myself for people, never even felt loved at all until I came here for my girl. I didn't know if I could feel love, having a smashed soul. She is the one person who seems to truly care about me, wants me, after an entire lifetime of emotional abuse and pain, first from my father, then from me for not being able to defend myself, considering he took away my confidence and esteem, leaving me crushed. When I am with her I feel good. I don't feel worthless, I don't feel pain. She is the only person ever able to nearly instantly relax me, remove my anger, even with just a smile. That is hard to do since anger is one of my core feelings, along with sadness....anyway, sorry if rambling, saw your profile after putting in my zip code, and well, I tend to be way emo. 
I think you are in the next town 
I think you are in the next town