bettie1950

ahhh, what an emotional day.

This morning I went on an interview, which I think went pretty well. It seems like I might actually enjoy the job, at least a little more than these past two. The girl who interviewed me and would be my boss seems really cool. Hell, she had a Social Distortion clock on her desk, heavy black liquid eyeliner and her tongue pierced. She also told me the dress code is all black. I think I'd fit right in. And knowing my luck, I probably won't get the job. But I'm trying to be optimistic. Trying being the key word.

For those of you who aren't already aware, they are closing the office where I work. As of 15 minutes ago I am now they only one left in my department. I just had to do all the final paperwork for the other two girls who were left. It was extremely hard. Especially since one of them I was pretty close to. It's going to be weird coming in for the next month and not having a single person here. Although I always say how I hate my job, you get comfortable in it and changes are always upsetting. I don't like to see people cry either. I always feel so awkward. Crying's just not part of how I was raised. I almost never cry in front of other people.

Okay, my boss just came over and we had a "heart to heart", if you could call it that. I don't know if I feel better or worse. So I am going home to contemplate my life, and ponder upon what it is I want from it.

Thank you and good night