betsyjane

Oy.
I'm fine!

Baxter, the rat I am fostering bit me pretty badly on the finger. I knew he was truamatized and anti-social and it was my fault for not wearing the handling gloves. I had pet him a few times with out the gloves and I thought he was calmed down and warming up to me. Every other rat I have ever known has always been so sweet and their bites, if any, were just nips so I wasn't expecting it to be so bad.
I also had a really strange reaction to it both emotionally and physically. I got really stomach sick and wanted to cry (but not out of pain) and I still don't know why.


I want to look at acupressure stuff and see what that part of the finger corresponds to.
The whole thing just messed me up way more than it should have.
I've had animal bites before and far worse injuries and much more pain from other things in the past and never reacted like that.

Any way, the nerves were crushed and I have temporary (probably temporary they said) paralasis in half of my pinky finger on my right hand. It seems so minor but I had no idea how much I used my pinky for!!!
Also I'm a very sensual person and losing the feeling in one of my fingers is upsetting to me. I know it isn't a huge deal but it's sad. I have a friend who is paralized from bellow her boobs down. I feel like an asshole for caring about one small finger.

I put off going to the ER because I have no money and I had to borrow some but then they didn't even charge me. I guess they are going to send me a bill. I got a tetnus shot and some ibruprofin and I have to go back in two days. I don't even want to know what the bill is going to be.
Sorry to those who were worried!!!
I also don't know what to do about baxter because he needs to be held in order to not become completely wild but I'm afraid that even with the gloves he will latch on to my arm or something.

That's all I can think of for now.
Canada Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!