betsy_maid

I feel much better now. Well, now I'm just a bit drunk, but I have felt much better the last few days. Think we're going out tonight. It'll be fun! And I can still drink, because I haven't started taking the Lithium yet.

It feels like everything is so wonderful! And I love this site and all support you have shown me when I felt...
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Well, today I feel like crap again. the doctor says I'm manic-depressive and should try lithium, but I don't know if i should. I already take fluoxetine and abilify (and stesolid and propavan) and now I drink lots of wine too. I'm a mess, totally, and I don't know how to solve this. Maybe I should trust my doctor and begin taking lithium then, when...
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I started taking 100 mg of my Fluoxetin instead of the usual 80 mg my doctor tells me I should take, and it makes me feel so much better, but a bit hysterical. I don't know what to do. I have so much energy!

Went to my neighbour Jonas, who I had ordered some t-shirts from (brand Suicide Glam). I didn't know we were neighbours...
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Gaaah! I can't sleep. I've read Hare Krishna-books and played Xenosaga for hours. Now I have to sleep. I have to! Or maybe I'll just make some coffee.

Was to the psychiatrist yesterday. Got my results of the CT and EEG. I have nothing wrong with my brain, it seems. And that's a relief, I guess, but in a way I had hoped that they would find something, so they could cure me easily, but I should just be happy that nothing's wrong, of course.

I can't wait to do a set for...
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Have been to Liseberg (the amusement park) twice in the last two days. Everyone else was out drinking, but I didn't feel like it. I have been a mess, so I thought it was best not to.

I have discovered that it is impossible to have/be in a state of anxiety when on the rides. Bought lots of lollipops and candy as well. Met my...
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I feel much better now. Read parts of some books about hinduism, and they made me feel much better.

Driving myself crazy with eating disorders. I wish I had something nicer to write about, but I could really need some support right now. I can't even have food at home. I just throw everything up. I thought for a while I was well, but I am not and it makes me sad. It's just a way I handle my problems, but I wish I...
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The meeting with Saniro went well, but I can't still get these feelings of being worthless away, and also, this bulimia hell is driving me crazy. I just feel so disgusting. I hope I will get well someday. I thought I was doing all right now, but I guess I'm not. Gaaaah, well, whatever, tomorrow is another day, right?

Had my friend Karolina over for a night because she was in town for a art project (The summer of love). I went with her to the caravan, where they did the interviews and I was interviewed about my love- and sexlife.

I don't know why, but I miss my boyfriend so much and he's just at work. Drinking wine to kill the time. Tomorrow...
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