Tomorrow I have to go to a new psyciatrist, a man this time, about my eating disorders. I really don't want to. When I am at an anorexia/bulimia-clinic it feels like I have to compete with the anorectics and it feels like they all want me to be anorexic or at least bulimic, and it feels like I cannot do anything else but be what they wnt me to be. I wish I could weigh 39 kg again, but I know that if I started dieting like that again I would die. I almost did last summer.
But I don't know how to go to an anorexia clinic without becoming anorexic again. Today I threw up a lot, just because I'm nervous for tomorrow. It calms me down, even if it's disgusting. I've been doing this since I was ten so I'm used to it.
God, I'm nervous.
But I don't know how to go to an anorexia clinic without becoming anorexic again. Today I threw up a lot, just because I'm nervous for tomorrow. It calms me down, even if it's disgusting. I've been doing this since I was ten so I'm used to it.
God, I'm nervous.
honsolo:
well your doing what you feel is right. that always accounts for a lot
the_deacon:
You just need to build up the confidence to know you look and feel awesome no matter your wait...that is the key. It is all a mind-set. You need to be comfortable with yourself in understanding you needn't compete for looks. You need to just get in a comfort zone with yourself and your own body. And distractions and hobbies to occupy your time so you don't focus. Remember, you look great!!! 