betsy_maid

Have been to Liseberg (the amusement park) twice in the last two days. Everyone else was out drinking, but I didn't feel like it. I have been a mess, so I thought it was best not to.

I have discovered that it is impossible to have/be in a state of anxiety when on the rides. Bought lots of lollipops and candy as well. Met my...
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I feel much better now. Read parts of some books about hinduism, and they made me feel much better.

Driving myself crazy with eating disorders. I wish I had something nicer to write about, but I could really need some support right now. I can't even have food at home. I just throw everything up. I thought for a while I was well, but I am not and it makes me sad. It's just a way I handle my problems, but I wish I...
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The meeting with Saniro went well, but I can't still get these feelings of being worthless away, and also, this bulimia hell is driving me crazy. I just feel so disgusting. I hope I will get well someday. I thought I was doing all right now, but I guess I'm not. Gaaaah, well, whatever, tomorrow is another day, right?

Had my friend Karolina over for a night because she was in town for a art project (The summer of love). I went with her to the caravan, where they did the interviews and I was interviewed about my love- and sexlife.

I don't know why, but I miss my boyfriend so much and he's just at work. Drinking wine to kill the time. Tomorrow...
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Had a bad night so I scratched myself til I started bleeding. Its just the angst over that I can't have things in my past undone.

It wasn't too smart. My arm looks awful.

I have fallen in love with Manko at SG. She's just the best!

I have updated with some new photos of myself in black hair. The blonde is gone, for a while at least that is.

My camera ran out of batteries, so I couldn't take more pictures. I really should have some pro taking photographs of me. It was cancelled after SG didn't want my first set, but maybe I should do a set for later on...
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I think I have a fever but I want to party tonight!

Dollys set is up and it's great! She's just so pretty!

Maybe we'll go to Sticky Fingers tonight, me, Jonny, Jonas and Steffo. I hope it'll be fun.

I really need some fun right now.
Tomorrow it's karaokenight.

One of my friends, called handsome-Jonny, is visiting. Right now I don't know where he is, but maybe we'll go out later on.

I have printed out two extra copies of "The Daycare Center". I hope it will be a success ^_^ when I send it in.

I would like to put up some new photos soon. But I haven't been well. i'm sorry, darlings.

I have started eating again. I'm kind of depressed, so I get like that from time to time. I don't really know what to do about it but anyway I have decided to not call myself fat anymore. It's just negative and doesn't help at all. I don't want to be depressed anorexic anymore anyway. I want to be healthy and be responsible when it...
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Ok, I have become fat. or am becoming fat, and it has to end!

From today I won't eat anything until I weigh 51 kilos again. I'm almost at 60 kg now. It's terrible.

God, I'm in a bad mood. And I have a cold.

I'm finnished with my book "Daghemmet" or "The Daycare Center" as it maybe would be called in english. Tomorrow I have another date with Candylove. Looking forward to it.

Today I have a fat day. I don't know what I've been eating, but something has surely made me look all swollen. maybe not what you'd like to hear, but it sure make my boobs look...
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