betrayedbyhope

..whats going on?!?!?!?


Its so funny how many times one persons mind can change...

SO here i am, with a million thoughts running through my head, and i cant complete a single one.. Its come to my attention, that no matter how strong of a feeling love may be... Apparently its not always enough...

I use to think it could get through anything if it was real enough.. perhaps i was wrong.. but though my heart may never heal.. Its time for me to move on...

I want her back so badly, there is no doubt.. but now, it seems that no longer matters.. because in the end, i just dont see it happening.. And for the first time, in a very very long time..

I Give Up.

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I realize i have been going back and forth whether i am staying on here or not, but i cant even make up my own mind now.. its so hard to see her and not want to fall apart.. i mean, shes an S.G., im bound to see her if i stay... but yet, some of the people i met on here Boo , MidniteDance , are the ones who take the time to talk to me and try and help me through this.. and believe me, i appreciate the friendship more then they know...

So am i staying, or going.. ive yet to decide... But i will say this, in June of 2006, not this summer, but next... If i dont have her.. *shrugs* im moving.. plans have already been set.. i move to San Fran, Cali. to live with my cousin as she will help me get on my feet, and a career in my digital arts field..

Well everyone, thanks again for listening to me go on and on, listening to me whine and complain.. you all are the best.. Thank You...