betodyke

So it's day 4 without drugs. I haven't decided yet, if I'm done for good or just cutting back. I haven't stabbed anyone yet. And I was around people yesterday getting high, they were okay with my choice not to do any. I've noticed I have a lot more money now. In 4 days I've noticed that the whole reason for me always being broke was my drug habit. It's not good when you spend half your paycheck just to feel numb.
I'm going to the bar tonight to celebrate my friends 21st birthday. I don't know if I'm going to drink or not. I've never really had a problem with alcohol. My friend with a drinking problem is going to be there. I don't know how I feel about being around someone that was dry for 6 months, who is drinking like a fish again. All because of a stupid girl. God women are so fucking evil. The jury is still out on that as of right now.
I've been writing a lot lately. More than I have in the past couple of years. It's something that I truly love doing. I usually just keep it to myself. It's something for me and me alone. I'm surprised I'm still able to write at all. I've abused and neglected my love for far too long. Hopefully everything will go alright tonight...

Okay, so I have a hour left at work. Which means I have to do something around here. If you want leave me something warm and fuzzy to read when I get back. I'm taking a digital camera with me tonight. So there will be some fun drunken pictures to look at tomorrow. Funny stuff.