bethalie

on friday night i went to [BANGFACE (in electrowerkz in angel in london in england in the world in the univerrrse). it was pretty good but i didn't really get high but i spent alot of time talking to my ex-boyfriend and we are working it out. maybe getting back together. it's just that, i see things (not boys i mean just, things, inspiration you know.) ad i want to be free and on my own. and he lives in london not here. which is okay sometimes but when i'm poor it doesn't help. and the fact i'm being so practically-minded means something i think.
i notice it in my writing too. when i handwrite, my letters are sticking way more to the line theyre on than ever before. maybe i have changed a little.
anyway - drop the lime was fucking HEAVY and i danced on stage (pretty much on my own) for like all of his set. i felt like i was leading the crowd like a little cheerleader. it was awesome; euphoric. but aaargh man i was fucking knackered. getting home was gash boi, scon is miserable after a night out. we had to stay up all night, we were out for about 14 hours. awake for about 40-41 hours. ouch yeah?

i bought books and films in cheltenham in a fast, bad mood. i blame the tired.
i had a lovely tea. a lovely sleep.

i hope everthing works out okay with me and him. i feel today like i should be doing things with my life. i am starting today i think. to do those things i always wanted to get to magazines to get to doing some things like that.


ALSO i had a brownie this morning and it is my last cake, biscuit, chocolate or anything like that until my birthday.
alrighhhht.
xzxzxzx


bangface after.