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I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

My very drunk ex-girlfriend called me at 2.00am this morning. She thought I was her new boyfriend. That really fucking hurt

'dont drink this, its not beer, its piss...'

'Just take some time away from all of this because its going to be the only way you're going to see things clear. But find me when you figure out what's going on inside your head because I can't lose you. So stay with me for one last time. I can't let this slip away. So stay with me for one last time I can't...
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I am shut out of mine own heart
because my love is far from me,
nor in the wonders have I part
that fill its hidden empery:

The wildwood of adventurous thought
and lands of dawn my dream had won,
the riches out of Faery brought
are buried with our bridal sun.

And I am in a narrow place,
and all its little streets are...
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grrrr cant find the SG flyers!! where are they??????????????????????????????

Ah monday, the swear word of the week. an early start and too much coffee ice cream have left me feeling particularly shit, and the thought of having to see my charming ex again tomorrow is the crowning turd on the day.

'its a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful day and the sun still shines shines shines over the james'

well what an eventful few days its been. i had the pleasure of spending yesterday night with my ex, it was fucking horrible!! i cant shed the strong emotions i feel for her, and it hurts to see her so cold towards me. thank god that there were a crowd of us.

i also get the joy of seeing her tomorrow as well, and if...
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'Regular and frequent sexual intercourse is beneficial. However be master, not slave of your sex life. Oral-genital sex is not harmful; on the contrary, it is often desirable. Visualise yourself as the creative Shiva, and your partner as your shakti energy. Let her lie on you and drink your sperm; let you suck her discharge of pleasure'

Tamil Siddha Text 1968

uch. all this moping around is taking its toll on me, ive got to pick myself up out of this slump. she'll be at the pub tonight which will be weird. i dont think she realises how much i still love her and i think this is why i cant move on. do i tell her or let it lie?