Well it was definitely another busy weekend, tried 3 times to see the house I wanted to move into, all 3 were met with some dumb excuse by the friend I was looking into renting from. Granted this is one of those people that loves to exaggerate and make up things to seem cooler. I'm stating to doubt there really is a house, which pisses me off since he knows i need out of this house, and that my boys need out of this house... I even passed up 2 apartments for the chance at this house. Needless to say when i see him later tonight, I'm going to give him a piece of my mind. Other than that things were pretty uneventful, went to the zoo with the boys on friday, but it closed early and they're favorite parts were closed because of a fund raiser they were doing fri night. So we went again on saturday too so they could see the penguins, polar bear, and the tigers. Of course after having fun for those 2 days something irritating was bound to happen... so once we get home nice and tired, i check my messages and find out someone(ex wife( is publicly (on facebook) accusing me of stealing their things...Of course no mention of what I supposedly stole, so after poking around a bit, turns out I apparently stole some ds games, of which i have none of the games in question, i only have like 6...the rest of mine have been missing for months, since before they were split between us, and her birth certificate. Now why the fuck would i need or want someone elses birth cert, seriously, if you cant keep track of your own things, then don't sit there and accuse me of lying and stealing from you. The last time i saw it was when she needed it copied to get the job she has now that she lied to get.., and i'll happily tell her if she'd actually say something to my face. Thank goodness I have stopped caring what she thinks and stopped letting her control me. Yeah things will still irritate me, but at least i can look back and wonder whatever possessed me to hold onto hope for so long. I mean when we tried to work things out after the initial split/separation, i was told that she doesn't go out of her way to look nice, or even put in effort for people, but even while supposedly working things out with me she was getting all dressed up every time she went to see her "friend" who she is now dating again it appears, so the whole wanting to work things out was just her lying to make sure she had a backup plan since they had broken up apparently as everyone suspected. Of course i was dumb and in that 2 months I even went so far as to help her get a car. Yet again getting taken advantage of by this girl. I'm done trusting those who have even given me hesitation or the slightest reason to doubt them, its done nothing but hurt me and my boys. They let her back in their lives too and now she's running off and hardly doing anything with them again, other than to buy them a few things every few weeks so she can post something on facebook with pictures to call herself a great mom..... yet does she get them up in the morning? nope, does she get their breakfast/lunch/dinner? nope, does she change them? once in a rare while, and only if im busy or gone. does she put them to bed? only if i'm at work, or had to run out for some reason, otherwise i do it. Saying your tired due to work is understandable, but when you work under 20 hours a week, and i work 45-50 yet do all those things and don't use that as an excuse? no that's not acceptable, so no i won't be even considering giving her the 50/50 custody she wants, she's going to be lucky to get every other weekend, and even then i'm willing to bet she will ditch them with her parents so she can go out. Ok enough rambling/ranting for me, sorry i kind of went off on a tangent there. I'm off to work for the night, later people.
