beryn

well im alive, i'd say things are wonderful, but im not one to lie, not that things are horrible really just they are kinda there.

things with the gf are on hold for reasons which i both understand and dont if that makes any sense to you people. I'm sure the distance cant be helping things either. Perhaps its for the best but i cant help but hurt because of it and how sudden it happened. Some days i want to try to move on but that means finding and meeting someone new, when i know theres still feelings for her. Of course to complicate things more Raistlin absolutely adores her and she seems to care alot about him as well so in this one at least i am lost, any help at all would be wonderful but im not gonna hold my breath.

got layed off from my job so im looking for a new one unless things pick back up before i find one

ive determined i have a shortage of friends, i need some new ones i think, i've only got a few and the ones i do never seem to want to leave the house

ive been making enough money while layed off to keep the bills relativly up to date and still eat and stay at least mostly sane.

Raistlins doing great tho which is a good thing, he and his mom have moved across town its a little closer and not so out of the way to visit abit more often which is nice. He's getting huge and is enough like me to make it impossible to deny that hes my son even if i wanted too. He is what keeps be going on the bad days when i think too much about things.

i'll see what i can do about remembering to post some new pics, as i havent uploaded a new one in quite a while and Raistlins grown tons.