berlinn

i hate my life right now.

i know i shouldnt say that and things could always be worse, but i do. i do hate my life right now.

My Dog died On friday.
for those who know me know that she was more than a dog to my family. she was my sister. shes been a part of my life since i was 10 years old. she was my mothers best friend. Everyone loved her. and now shes gone and its been so hard. i sitll come home from work expecting her to be there to greet me at the door.

i had to watch her die. and it wasnt peaceful. it was horrible.

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my 80 year old Uncle was diagnosed with skin Cancer a couple of moths ago and now he is living with us as of last night. and that is depressing as hell. and its a big change in the house.

my house has become very depressing. i dont even want to be here and that is very unlike me.

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my boyfriend is talking about moving to San Fransisco. and he is considering this for the near future, he has always said he wants to eventually move back west. but i never really pictured it happening, at least not any time soon. and now it looks like he really is going to because he hasnt been making any money at work in New York.


so yeah. all of this happened within 3 days.