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So Day 2. The giddy feeling is gone. But I'm still ok. Sad cuz I still love him. But relieved. I feel like I've been released from a prison.

So I slept late. I was going to go look at the 2nd apartment place, but their CHEAPEST 2bdrm is the same price as the other place's most expensive one - and I'm interested in the mid-range one. Plus there is something sketchy about a place that has a zillon photos of the clubhouse & the grounds, but the only interior apartment shots are of a corner in the kitchen & all U can see is cabinets. No depth. Can't even tell how big the kitchen is. The place looks nicer on the outside and the amenities are nice, but something about that just is a giant red flag. So I think I might bite the bullet and apply at the other place & get the mid-range. It really is a nice place & I know my daughter will love it.
As much as I DESPISE moving, the whole process...There is something about it that is very cathartic. Clean slate, start over.
I need to find someone who can love me warts & all. Not try to restrict me, change me, control me.
I know that is asking for a lot. LOL. Cuz I'm Futz (fucking nuts). And as he said, "hard to love".
Makes me sad cuz he so easily coulda been the one.
Oh well. I have questionable taste in men. LOL

So. I have piles & piles of laundry to do. And I need to hit the store. I know there are several things I need.
But first...i need food & a shower. LOL Wish I had plans tonight.