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beqa

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Monday Feb 06, 2012

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For the life of me I will never understand why people can't be more blunt.
It would be refreshing.

So Off-again says that I have an overinflated opinion of him. Says that I think he is better than he actually is.
Cited financial BS again. Like I give a damn about that. My husband walked out of his job (without telling me he was planning on it) a few weeks after I said I would marry him. I still married him, perhaps that was a mistake as we are now separated pending divorce. Altho to be fair to hubby, his employment was/is not an issue that was a problem. I believed in him & knew he would land on his feet eventually. So that's 2 people I know of that I believed in and who proved me right. Hmmm. Interesting.

So why does HE seem to think that because I love him, I must be completely delusional about who he is? Why can't I love him for who he really is...not just the good stuff? I don't think he is 100% sunshine & rainbows, in fact sometimes he can be a supreme dick. Why can't i love his jerk side too? We all have jerk moments. Lord knows I can (and am) be a crazy ass bitch. I'm not fucking perfect, but just because you love someone who is also Not Perfect it doesn't make you delusional about that person.

Then I get this...that he was "disheartened" by the fact that I was going into chat with my new webcam & broadcasting topless. I told him if he wanted me to stop, he knew my terms. FWB do not get to be pissy about the other FWB doing topless web chat. If he wants that right, he needs to give me a real relationship. Not why I did it. I was on webchat & topless/naked is my natural state when home alone (or after babybun goes to bed & I hole up in my room). It wasn't a "Hey look at me" thing. It was more let's chat & gonna try & just act natural & try to remember not to think out loud cuz the fucking microphone is on.

But apparently he thought it was sad that i had reached a new low or something. Said something bout being desperate for attention. DUH. spent 8 yrs being mostly ignored by my husband. but its not why i went on chat. being lonely & starved for attention are not always a mixed drink. i go on chat so i dont feel so alone. to interact with other human beings. so i dont sit here alone & dwell on the things that make me sad & angry & paranoid.

I can't figure him out. very oddly hot & cold.
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beqa:
Meat is murder.


Tasty tasty murder.biggrin
Feb 9, 2012
tokenwhitegrrl:
Random comment.

Guys are weird. Period.


I think I might have lucked out... my husband-guy has no problem with me being naked in front of others. (He bought me my SG subbie)

Ps if meat is murder I'll have the double homicide please
Feb 9, 2012

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