ok. So this day coulda been a right disaster... for ONCE a lil forward thinking way back has smiled.
Apparently when we got the water heater in 2005, we got the 9-YR warranty! Oh yeah..covered til 2014! *PHEW*. So finding that out was a relief. But of course, one hole plugged, spring a leak elsewhere (metaphorically speaking).
Story of my life. Saw bf on Friday. Before he left he asked me what I was doing Saturday. Nothing as usual. He calls me Saturday round bout 11am. Sounds...funny. Says he is tired, but doesn't sound tired. Sounds upset. I asked him if he is alright. Yeah just tired. So after a few he says he is gonna go, call you later. ok. So round about 7pm I send a txt "hope u are feeling better".
15 min later, response from bf "Maintain radio silence". ??? ok. I have not heard from him since...now 27 hours later. No explanation, nothing. I would be upset but mostly I am fucking worried. His mom is in hospice with an inoperable brain tumor, basically vegetative now, could go any minute. She already outlived the doctor's estimate for how long she had left. If she passed he & his wife & son would be in WV & he would not be able to txt/call, not that it would even probably be on his mind.
I hate not knowing wtf is going on. I hate being the "other woman" so I don't merit an explanation. That I am not the one to be there for him.
Or his mom is ok & he is going thru some heavy shit with wife.
Or his mom is ok & he is ok & just being a total asshat.
I really hate to say I hope to god it is not #3.
Conversely...soon-to-be-ex-husband...spent most of the day at his (formerly our) place. Did about 5 loads of laundry. Watched football. Talked. At one point me & him on either end of the couch with our daughter snuggled between us.
I'm glad that we can be like that without it being a big deal but it does hurt. I remember all the good stuff...how much i do enjoy his company...he even offered to blow up the air mattress for me so I could stay over there so I would be able to take a shower in the morning. I declined politely. It hurt me to have to leave him. Still hurts. But i know 100% that I made the correct decision. The good is not enough to make me go back, no matter how much easier my life would be.
So since I watched football today. Here are the scores for the day:
Ex-hubby 1: BF 0.
Fucking all sappy & emotional now. I know I shouldn't complain about having the most amicable divorce in all of history, but it is just as hard in a different way. Easier on daughter though, which is why we tried so hard. Now its easier to do...but I found myself wanting to talk to him as a friend, tell him bout my bf worries & i can't. He knows about bf, but not exactly something I can expect him to handle being a shoulder for me.
Apparently when we got the water heater in 2005, we got the 9-YR warranty! Oh yeah..covered til 2014! *PHEW*. So finding that out was a relief. But of course, one hole plugged, spring a leak elsewhere (metaphorically speaking).
Story of my life. Saw bf on Friday. Before he left he asked me what I was doing Saturday. Nothing as usual. He calls me Saturday round bout 11am. Sounds...funny. Says he is tired, but doesn't sound tired. Sounds upset. I asked him if he is alright. Yeah just tired. So after a few he says he is gonna go, call you later. ok. So round about 7pm I send a txt "hope u are feeling better".
15 min later, response from bf "Maintain radio silence". ??? ok. I have not heard from him since...now 27 hours later. No explanation, nothing. I would be upset but mostly I am fucking worried. His mom is in hospice with an inoperable brain tumor, basically vegetative now, could go any minute. She already outlived the doctor's estimate for how long she had left. If she passed he & his wife & son would be in WV & he would not be able to txt/call, not that it would even probably be on his mind.
I hate not knowing wtf is going on. I hate being the "other woman" so I don't merit an explanation. That I am not the one to be there for him.
Or his mom is ok & he is going thru some heavy shit with wife.
Or his mom is ok & he is ok & just being a total asshat.
I really hate to say I hope to god it is not #3.
Conversely...soon-to-be-ex-husband...spent most of the day at his (formerly our) place. Did about 5 loads of laundry. Watched football. Talked. At one point me & him on either end of the couch with our daughter snuggled between us.
I'm glad that we can be like that without it being a big deal but it does hurt. I remember all the good stuff...how much i do enjoy his company...he even offered to blow up the air mattress for me so I could stay over there so I would be able to take a shower in the morning. I declined politely. It hurt me to have to leave him. Still hurts. But i know 100% that I made the correct decision. The good is not enough to make me go back, no matter how much easier my life would be.
So since I watched football today. Here are the scores for the day:
Ex-hubby 1: BF 0.
Fucking all sappy & emotional now. I know I shouldn't complain about having the most amicable divorce in all of history, but it is just as hard in a different way. Easier on daughter though, which is why we tried so hard. Now its easier to do...but I found myself wanting to talk to him as a friend, tell him bout my bf worries & i can't. He knows about bf, but not exactly something I can expect him to handle being a shoulder for me. VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
beqa:
BUT NOW i have to run over to the Ex's and get a shower. I am not spending the night there tonight. But I think tomorrow I will. I hate not being able to shower in the morning. I feel icky. (i sweat a lot in my sleep apparently).
beqa:
and OMG i have to blog when i get back....just got the most awesome msg on FB ever!