Meh. Fuck today. Drove 3 hours to go snowboarding at Crystal Mountain. Got all the way there to find it closed for the season. Just my luck. Ugh. I was talked into hiking up the first lift to ride down to at least make it worth the drive and that was the end of that.
Got home to be disappointed, yet again and of no surprise, by not one, but two, of my friends that are now junkies. Its hard to be there for people when they get all caught up in heroin. I don't trust them and I sure as shit don't depend on them. It's just that, these two used to be solid chicks. I just don't understand the whole heroin thing. What a waste of everything. It makes me so sad.
I think I just need to make new friends.
But, this isn't high school. It's not that easy.
I mean, who doesn't like to be judged before a word is spoken to you.
The only time that it's fun is when someone gives you that one second of a chance and you prove them wrong.
Just because I'm decent looking DOES NOT mean I'm a bitch in any way. Because I'm not. Not even a little bit.
I just have trust issues and people fucking suck.
Got home to be disappointed, yet again and of no surprise, by not one, but two, of my friends that are now junkies. Its hard to be there for people when they get all caught up in heroin. I don't trust them and I sure as shit don't depend on them. It's just that, these two used to be solid chicks. I just don't understand the whole heroin thing. What a waste of everything. It makes me so sad.
I think I just need to make new friends.
But, this isn't high school. It's not that easy.
I mean, who doesn't like to be judged before a word is spoken to you.
The only time that it's fun is when someone gives you that one second of a chance and you prove them wrong.
Just because I'm decent looking DOES NOT mean I'm a bitch in any way. Because I'm not. Not even a little bit.
I just have trust issues and people fucking suck.
My FIance is in the process of leaving me, and it's the most peacefully painful breakup I've ever had to go through because we're both good people, we're just headed in different directions
That gambling guy, texts me at work tonight and asks me how I'm feeling, after I tell him I'm in rough shape, he then asks me for 50$ WHAT!? lol