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benni

Minneapolis. It's cold, and sometimes it's scary... but i love it.

SG Since 2003

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Wednesday Jun 02, 2004

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tell me who i am... i'm lost... confused... i need to scream, break things, cry... i want to burn everything i own and give everyone the finger and just disappear...

i want to be consoled... i want to be filled, fixed, okay... i don't want anyone near me, no one to touch me or give me that smile... that one that says you fucked up but i'll feel bad for you because you feel bad...

i want more than anything to be someone else... i want to be an addict, out of my head, incoherent, unaware. i want to fuck a thousand boys and i never want anyone to lay their hands on me ever again.

who decided i was going to be me? why did they want me this way, confused, angry, alone...

fuck them. they deserve a bullet.

today is not going to be a good day.



blackeyed
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jayden:
Howabout you rub your danger zone all over MY danger zone, and we call it even? love
Jun 4, 2004
ciel:
i know how you feel Benni, but soon as things go shit, sometimes, something good happens. make you keep focused, or you might miss it smile

kiss
Jun 15, 2004

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