Tuesday Feb 08, 2005

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im going out for a bit.... running some errands and buying meself a smoothie. when i get home ill update for real. i swear.

no, seriously. i promise.
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kira:
update???? so where is it????

kiss kiss kiss
fiesty:
Hey Benni been forever and a day since I have talked to you, if you even remember who I am lol. Hope you are doing well. Take care hun.

Tuesday Feb 01, 2005

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i did laundry, cleaned my bathroom, worked, and read a story to my cats.

thats the most productive ive been in weeks.

love
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fdnymedic:
kiss love
moralitydies:
how was th trip?

Saturday Jan 29, 2005

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last night a girl at work made me cry; it pissed me off, because i should be above that bullshit. she told me i was rude, that none of the girls like me and its funny that i dont know that, and that i should buy some class. utilizing my *amazing* restraint, i refrained from telling her that i wasnt the fifty year old with...
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elvgrenink:
frown want to hug and nuzzle the benni
erythrocytez:
Hey thanks for the comment! Did you see the xray on the previous entry? You can see the metal bar quite clearly in it. I can actually feel the ends of it on each of my sides now. Feels quite unusual but I'll get used to it. It was a bit of an ordeal, but I'm getting over it quicker than I anticipated. My first major operation so I'm glad for the experience anyway smile

And to answer your question, my sleeve was done my Matt Cunnington atWestside Tattooin Brisbane Australia. He does some really incredible work, like this backpiece.

Sunday Jan 23, 2005

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my hands are my hands, but they dont listen to me anymore... ignoring my brain, sending signals to brush the hair out of my eyes; swing and a miss! attempt to rub my tired eyes and wipe the tension from my forehead instead...

maybe my hands are not my hands. they seem to have a mind of their own, as of late... all they can...
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tegan:
yes i got your email.

ill see you soon.

im here now.

you can call me on my 415 number.
click_here:
i love da ladies also

i think you need one of those posturepic beds with the space aqage material and one of those special japanese pillows


hows the mutant arm coming along?

Wednesday Jan 19, 2005

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its like i had all my days carefully arranged in a jar, and then i dropped it into a gross puddle...

or the toilet, or something.

so now i dont want to reach in to retrieve them, but when i do, when i pull the days out... theyre muddy and confused, dripping and wrinkled and disgusting and out of order...

like my life has no...
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spacetracer:
nice artistry in your poetry i reall enjoyed it very iformative to my sub-consious mind hit me where it hurts! give us more its really eye-opening i enjoyed it immensely
badphinger:
you're way with words is beautiful!!! matched only by the beauty you bring to your photos!!! thank you for letting me into your mind!!!

Thursday Jan 13, 2005

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i miss you.










blackeyed




puke
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billybillybilly:
i'm drunk enough to where i wish that journal had anything to do with me.

you just push me away, and you're so good at it. i wish i could do the same, but i'm so weak. you've got some crazy hold on me, and you don't even care, but i do. and i always will.

i'm going to stop dwelling on this. at least until tomorrow morning.
xbronzebeautyx:
hope you feel better sweety, missing people hurts, ALOT!

kiss kiss

Monday Jan 10, 2005

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UPDATE.

updated for the sake of updating, but did so with nothing to say.

oops.

sorry, guys. didnt sit back and look at it till people started calling the roomie.

i live.
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aurora:
glad you live..

someone called my roommate when i lived in alberta once, becuase i wrote on my online journal.. "i died tonight" ...

i wanted to say.. if i really died, would i have typed it on the computer tongue?
dagan:
no comment...

Sunday Jan 09, 2005

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and as the blood ran down my fingers and fell, unceremoniously, to the floor, i realized just how badly all of this was going to hurt.

and it was worse than i thought.
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zpo:
/me grabs his handy SF medic bag and jumps into the MEDEVAC bird.

Do me a favor and pop smoke so I know where to fastrope in.

tongue biggrin tongue

grizz3rd:
I wish I could feel your pain for you

Sunday Jan 02, 2005

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"holy shit."

"what?"

"we're late..."

"what time is it?"

"one thirty."

"holy fuck."

and so it began, new years eve day, late like so many other days before. you hit a point when its so late theres no possible way you could be on time, so you do it my way: as slowly as damn possible.

a shower, deliberate makeup application. trial and error with...
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tegan:
whats going on.

call me.
billybillybilly:
never thought i'd bring myself to do this, but whiskey allows me to do things i wouldn't otherwise.

you're off the list. i need time, and i need my things.

i hope it doesn't sting. i still love you, but i can't keep doing this. i'm empty, i have nothing else to give, and it's just easier for me to not be checking your journal every five minutes when i don't have a link to it directly.

hope new york has treated you well.

Thursday Dec 30, 2004

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ah, wednesdays. good things always seem to happen on wednesdays.

tegans here. shes in bed with me, and her head is almost in my lap. i may be the luckiest woman in the world.

met the lovely roby tonight... something id been meaning to do for a long time now... shes adorable, and rules more than i could possibly explain to any of you......
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brokenalice:
Hey darlin' I missed talkin' to you...
back for at least 6 months smile
feronia:
i bet you could learn to love me if you let me have you alone for a few hours love

Monday Dec 27, 2004

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two dogs, dark and ominous, plaguing my sleep...

they started out decent, but lost their owners; a bright eyed couple who loved the mean out of them, chased away in a flourish of wagging tails and swirled air...

colors ooze through the scene. cant process.

then they wander away... forget the kindnesses done them and instinct burns in their brains, an itch behind their ear...
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azrael_abyss:
Happy early New Years doll!
user6142024:
consider yourself 'bookmarked as interesting'.....your journal always makes me smile....

Monday Dec 20, 2004

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i know im sick when i want my mom.

blackeyed
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tjaden:
i hope that you are feeling better... if not... i'll send you some cookies.

wink
trixie:
where are you sweetness? Are you okay?
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