benjib

I hate being single. I hate being told that you wish you could meet "someone just like me." Fuck that. I'm going to set up a booth on the highway so people can just reject me and move on with their lives. It'd save everyone else a lot of time getting to and from their partner's place, and as for me, well, those repeats of The Nanny aren't going to watch themselves now, are they? After every single person in the world has rejected me, I'll be free to go home and just drink myself to death. The most pathetic thing about me? I went through a horrifically abusive nine month relationship with a patheological liar/sociopath who cheated on me every chance she got. I haven't been on so much as one date in almost two years. In two years of college in two states, I've proven myself incapeble of even talking to a woman without dousing my liver in alchol beforehand. I have a better relationship with my computer than with any living human being that would even think once about going steady with me. Every person around me has at least four people interested in them. All I have is writing. That's it. At the end of the day, all there is to come home to is Microsoft Wordperfect. If it was legal, I probably would have married my keyboard, because that's the one fucking thing in my life that's making me happy. Only other time I'm really happy is when I've got so much alcohol in me I can't see straight.

If this is what 2006 is going to be like, I don't want to see 2007.

And when I wake up tomorrow and sober up, I'll probably realize that I've just made a complete fool of myself on a global scale. I'm fairly positive I'm just a universal dump. Let the world shit all over me, I can take it. If I was meant to be happy, I probably would've seen a glimpse of it by now.