benjamism's SuicideGirls Blog

OK. There's Xmas lights on a photo tripod serving as a Xmas tree. And my Xmas tree is tiny and doesn't look right with lights on it. But I'm feeling like white Xmas lights are the most beautiful things on this earth.

I went to a friends mother's house today, and she looked like a hobo and told us all we should have more enthusiasm,...
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arete:

creepy is different from unusual. unusual is good. creepy is....good question. not good, i'm certain of that.

i love hearing about/seeing people's makeshift christmas trees. one of my friends strung garland up with fishing line once in a corner of his livingroom, and then put xmas lights on that. beautiful.

Dec 27, 2004

I have a predisposition for the belief in magic. If you don't believe in magic, and you love to pretend to be an icycle, black in the center in broad daylight flowing downward and eroding the floor in it's path. I want candles that flicker and explode. Heat, to the point of it being unbearable, like the heat of a sunflower, and the sensuality of...
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I want to a have a suicidegirls encounter. Someone have an enchanted evening with me....

My cat realizes that night is coming, and he waits for it next to the window. And also there is a pigeon lurking outside above the window. When the sun goes down in my apartment is leaving glowing orbs of light fragments that cling for brief moments to the walls and things like bookshelves and vacuum cleaners. You've seen cats eyes in the sunlight as...
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I had a really strange week. Every relationship I have seems to be being pushed to its threshold and either breaking or getting stronger. I think I may have lost a really important person though in a performance poetry movie sort of thing I did. Now, the song Total Eclipse of the Heart will always bring me sad memories. What a shame....

arete:

that's sad, because that song is kinda funny, and cos you're a nice person and losing people is sad......it drives me mad......

i'll write something more intelligent later, promise

Dec 12, 2004

arete:

thank you so much for commenting on my set

Dec 18, 2004

I have a really strange week. Every relationship I have seems to be being pushed to its threshold and either breaking or getting stronger. I think I may have lost a really important person though in a performance poetry movie sort of thing I did. The song Total Eclipse of the Heart will always bring me sad memories. What a shame....

Has anyone seen the movie Trouble Everyday by Clair Denis? It was so beautiful. The viscerality of love and sex. Their is no limit to how far you can take anything.

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venla:

It was actually type o negative lyrics

Nov 29, 2004

arete:

my dear, you need to update. if you are currently studying for finals, you are being far too responsible. if you are not, then you have no excuse. I MISS YOU

Dec 10, 2004

Has anyone seen the movie Trouble Everyday by Clair Denis? It was so beautiful. The viscerality of love and sex. Their is no limit to how far you take anything.