ben999

I'm in pain. Not the worst I've ever been in, but enough so I can't get back to sleep.

And I'm back! Thank you to whoever is responsible for this development!

Edit: And now that I'm back I wonder if anyone will actually see the blogs that I write.

I saw Clueless with my parents today. I liked the memories of the 90s it brought back, but it was a bad movie. For a long time I was nostalgic for the 90s. Now I miss three, four, five years ago. I'm nostalgic for the early part of this decade. Whatever it's called. When I was visiting my girlfriend last, we watched Mean Girls, and...
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My poor girlfriend. They're cutting her hours at work. They're cutting everyone's hours, but hers more than anyone else's. We both have mental illnesses, and in many respects she's higher functioning than I am, but when it comes to jobs I've had more luck keeping them than she has.

Speaking of which, I'm looking for a new job. I quit my old one, for reasons...
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Lately I've been feeling nostalgiac, missing my old life. The one I had four or five years ago. It's funny, because most people would say my life back then sucked. At least that's what I think they'd say. I had no job, no, girlfriend, one friend, and very little money, but I was happy in my own miserable, paranoid way. Go figure.

Edited: Forget what I said before. I'm tired, sick, and not thinking straight. Damn I want to puke.

I've realized that I don't know what "normal" people talk about. Actually I've realized that a few times, and then I learn, and then I forget again. Maybe it's just because I'm tired today, and I'm drawing a blank. And I know this blog is very stream of thought. I have a script inside my head. It's just that it dosen't cover a lot of...
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I was looking at the blog of a friend of mine. I don't know if he's still my friend. I don't know if he ever was. Maybe he was just an aqcauintance. I have trouble telling friends and acqaintances apart. Me and a bunch of other guys used to go to his house every week to play rifts, and his wife would cook dinner for...
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I'm feeling better today. Earlier I was scared. I don't know of what exactly. Maybe of all my friends abandoning me. Maybe of something else. The fear is still with me, but it's not as strong as it was. Even my closest friends are distant. I want a girlfriend again, because I hate being alone, but I seek it out. Solitude I mean. Whenever I...
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I called my ex girlfriend on my birthday, and yesterday, because she was supposed to be leaving today. She didn't return either of my calls. I also sent her an off line yahoo message on my birthday, in response to one of hers, but she didn't reply to it. When her church friends abandoned her she was upset, and I stuck by her through everything....
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