ben999

I feel very alone right now. Not as alone as I want to be, but alone nonetheless. It feels nice. There are some things on my profile I really should change, but not tonight. Tonight I revel in the solitude.

My paranoia flared up again today and I think I upset and worried my girlfriend a little. The zyprexa keeps it under control, but doesn't get rid of it completely. Really I'm not sure there's ever a time when I'm totally paranoia free. Maybe for brief periods. I'm not even sure about that though. But the meds make it so much more manageable.

The good...
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My midterm grade in programming was an A! I'll be able to post more soon. Also I'm going to see what I can do about getting new pictures up. It's still going to be a few days before I can do that though. In the meantime enjoy the picture of the dog.

I'm still busy with school. I have a math exam coming up soon.

I know I haven't been active lately. Mainly because of all my school work. I'll be happy when the semester ends.

It's snowing heavily here; it looks very misty outside. I may not be able to go to my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. It would be nice to go downtown, but as for the appointment itself I don't think I'll be missing much. I mainly go to restock my zyprexa because he gives me free samples. I like my pdoc and I enjoy speaking with him, but...
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Now that I'm back, I've decided to be more active on the site. That means more comments, more blogs, and I'm slowly updating my profile. I feel that in the past I hadn't been getting everything out of this site that I could've.

Alright, the new pics will have to wait. Hopefully they'll be making an appearance soon though. The appointment with my social worker was pretty uneventful. We just talked awhile, not about anything major. He wants me to take the post office exam, so I can get a job working there, because according to him they pay good money. I am going to take the exam...
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I should put up some new pics. I'm not really satisfied with the ones I have up now.

I haven't been posting much since my return. Maybe because my life is so ordinary right now, or at least as ordinary as my life can get. I've been doing school work, going to my appointments, and talking to my girlfriend. She's going to come down soon.

I'm seeing my social worker today and I'm actually looking forward to that appointment. Maybe because it's just...
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