ben999

I've written my first blog without introducing myself. My name's Ben, as you've probably guessed. I live part time in Baltimore, and part time in Bethesda, MD. My mailing address is in Baltimore, but my psychiatrist and social worker are in DC. I have schizotypal personality disorder. It makes it hard for me to deal with people, makes me paranoid. I have strange beliefs. At least other people would think so. As far as I know, no one else shares them. I spend a lot of time living in my own head. It's not all bad, but it does make for a very solitary existence. There aren't a lot of people I can relate to. It's not that I don't have friends, I do, but I'm not very close to them. I used to have serious problems with paranoia. I still do, but it's not as bad. I have stranger thoughts...but I don't know if I should talk about them now. Maybe in another blog post. There are a lot of people I like, but there's still a distance between me and them. I think my world would be very alien to them. And people sometimes show another side of themselves when you get close to them. I'd like to make more friends though.