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Washington, D.C.

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Monday Jul 24, 2006

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I've written my first blog without introducing myself. My name's Ben, as you've probably guessed. I live part time in Baltimore, and part time in Bethesda, MD. My mailing address is in Baltimore, but my psychiatrist and social worker are in DC. I have schizotypal personality disorder. It makes it hard for me to deal with people, makes me paranoid. I have strange beliefs. At least other people would think so. As far as I know, no one else shares them. I spend a lot of time living in my own head. It's not all bad, but it does make for a very solitary existence. There aren't a lot of people I can relate to. It's not that I don't have friends, I do, but I'm not very close to them. I used to have serious problems with paranoia. I still do, but it's not as bad. I have stranger thoughts...but I don't know if I should talk about them now. Maybe in another blog post. There are a lot of people I like, but there's still a distance between me and them. I think my world would be very alien to them. And people sometimes show another side of themselves when you get close to them. I'd like to make more friends though.
lielock:
My boy M is really paranoid...and has strange beliefs/thoughts....(like he feels bad for trash on the side of the road cuz it is all alone...must put grocery item back on the shelf where we found it so it can be near its friends)
That is a semi long drive from dc to baltimore to see your Dr. Well the traffic alone would ahh well I just hate traffic I wouldn't be able to do it.
Jul 26, 2006
ben999:
Hi! Thanks for the comment. It's not so much of a drive for me, just for the guy who operates the MARC train. I don't have a drivers license. Is M your Husband, your boyfriend, or your son? I'm always interested to here about other people who are like me. Anway it was good to hear from you. Take care.
Jul 27, 2006

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