I've realized that I don't know what "normal" people talk about. Actually I've realized that a few times, and then I learn, and then I forget again. Maybe it's just because I'm tired today, and I'm drawing a blank. And I know this blog is very stream of thought. I have a script inside my head. It's just that it dosen't cover a lot of...
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I was looking at the blog of a friend of mine. I don't know if he's still my friend. I don't know if he ever was. Maybe he was just an aqcauintance. I have trouble telling friends and acqaintances apart. Me and a bunch of other guys used to go to his house every week to play rifts, and his wife would cook dinner for...
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pinkraindrops:
I have trouble with the friend/aquaintance thing too
I'm feeling better today. Earlier I was scared. I don't know of what exactly. Maybe of all my friends abandoning me. Maybe of something else. The fear is still with me, but it's not as strong as it was. Even my closest friends are distant. I want a girlfriend again, because I hate being alone, but I seek it out. Solitude I mean. Whenever I...
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I called my ex girlfriend on my birthday, and yesterday, because she was supposed to be leaving today. She didn't return either of my calls. I also sent her an off line yahoo message on my birthday, in response to one of hers, but she didn't reply to it. When her church friends abandoned her she was upset, and I stuck by her through everything....
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I've written my first blog without introducing myself. My name's Ben, as you've probably guessed. I live part time in Baltimore, and part time in Bethesda, MD. My mailing address is in Baltimore, but my psychiatrist and social worker are in DC. I have schizotypal personality disorder. It makes it hard for me to deal with people, makes me paranoid. I have strange beliefs. At...
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lielock:
My boy M is really paranoid...and has strange beliefs/thoughts....(like he feels bad for trash on the side of the road cuz it is all alone...must put grocery item back on the shelf where we found it so it can be near its friends)
That is a semi long drive from dc to baltimore to see your Dr. Well the traffic alone would ahh well I just hate traffic I wouldn't be able to do it.
That is a semi long drive from dc to baltimore to see your Dr. Well the traffic alone would ahh well I just hate traffic I wouldn't be able to do it.
ben999:
Hi! Thanks for the comment. It's not so much of a drive for me, just for the guy who operates the MARC train. I don't have a drivers license. Is M your Husband, your boyfriend, or your son? I'm always interested to here about other people who are like me. Anway it was good to hear from you. Take care.
There's something liberating about starting over somewhere where no one knows you. No, I'm not talking about moving, but about blogging on Suicide Girls. I feel more free about what I can write here. Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 26, and I wasn't in the mood to celebrate, but I did, and as was pointed out to me, I have a lot to celebrate....
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