ben

So my insomnia has just been getting worse and worse, though at least I haven't gone the 110+ hours awake that I did at the end of April. I'm hoping that the counselor that I'll soon be seeing will be able to help in some form or fashion, though I know all the regular crap they suggest never works for me. I've tried meditation, relaxation tapes, hypnosis, etc. etc. all to no avail. At this point I've been on sleeping pills of some form for over a decade, so little chance that I'll manage un-drugged sleep at anytime in the foreseeable future. Of course this all just makes my depression issues that much worse, and keep me feeling like crap all the time. I'd wish I could get over one or the other, it'd be nice to either sleep or feel happy again...ideally both. I don't have any clue when either might happen sadly, so I just keep on going and trying to change things to no avail. Anyway, that's pretty much the only things going on with me as everything else is just as crappy as usual.