so alright.
it seems like the compass of internal heart and opinion is shifting.
i have been treating my emotions so harshly. they are there, and i am passionate, yet i have brutalized myself constantly.
i have been caught treating dating like a sport. i had nobody to compete with but myself, and through the conversation of an old friend with wise eyes, i have...
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it seems like the compass of internal heart and opinion is shifting.
i have been treating my emotions so harshly. they are there, and i am passionate, yet i have brutalized myself constantly.
i have been caught treating dating like a sport. i had nobody to compete with but myself, and through the conversation of an old friend with wise eyes, i have...
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Well.. today was about the last I should hear from the ex.
I told her that I have given her enough time, and that by now she should have found someplace safe to go to. She has her own place, but I have allowed her to have a set of keys to my apartment just in case she needed a quick place to get away...
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I told her that I have given her enough time, and that by now she should have found someplace safe to go to. She has her own place, but I have allowed her to have a set of keys to my apartment just in case she needed a quick place to get away...
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no:
drunken cousins. HaHa!!
purephase:
Take a hike through any mountains out west. It's a bit cold, but the clear, clean air should help.
As for the ex'es business, let it go. The only person losing here is you (by the sounds of it) and the quicker you cut the strings, the better. I'm not saying don't stay friends, but there's a line... a murky and hazy one, but it's there.
As for the ex'es business, let it go. The only person losing here is you (by the sounds of it) and the quicker you cut the strings, the better. I'm not saying don't stay friends, but there's a line... a murky and hazy one, but it's there.
Oh so tired.
I still need shoes, pants and to pay my parking tickets. First, bed.
I still need shoes, pants and to pay my parking tickets. First, bed.
OH MY FUCKING GOD.
So my secret is out.
Yes, I am a suicide boy. I have not done my pictures per se.. but you know what I mean.
My ex ex (hi ... no name mentioned as i respect your privacy much too much)(but wait.. what the fuck are you doing on this site anyhow).. whatever... well she is READING MY JOURNAL.
I am...
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So my secret is out.
Yes, I am a suicide boy. I have not done my pictures per se.. but you know what I mean.
My ex ex (hi ... no name mentioned as i respect your privacy much too much)(but wait.. what the fuck are you doing on this site anyhow).. whatever... well she is READING MY JOURNAL.
I am...
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So I have figured out some of the things that I do not wish to hear from my slobering friends:
"My girlfriend just does not understand that I need alone time."
"My boyfriend doesn't give me any attention."
Stupid people. Don't appreciate what they have. Ugk
"My girlfriend just does not understand that I need alone time."
"My boyfriend doesn't give me any attention."
Stupid people. Don't appreciate what they have. Ugk
damn straight.
i have just come in.. about to shower away the beer and pot and smell it up with some facial products from fucking aveda and stupid body shop and whatever. i feel drunk already but i am sick of people. why am i everyone's therapist? everyone else in the world should get an SGjournal ha. that way i could be left alone to...
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i have just come in.. about to shower away the beer and pot and smell it up with some facial products from fucking aveda and stupid body shop and whatever. i feel drunk already but i am sick of people. why am i everyone's therapist? everyone else in the world should get an SGjournal ha. that way i could be left alone to...
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bellensebastian:
and yes. boredom indeed.
and a definite lack of interesting personas to swirl around on my tongue.
and a definite lack of interesting personas to swirl around on my tongue.
is it wrong to want certain qualities in a partner?
i read one of the journals from another member, and she was listing specific characteristics such as being clean shaven, or wearing clean undies (two traits which i agree with and practice mind you).. so the way i see it, there is nothing wrong with hoping to find a reciprocating puzzle piece that matches right...
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i read one of the journals from another member, and she was listing specific characteristics such as being clean shaven, or wearing clean undies (two traits which i agree with and practice mind you).. so the way i see it, there is nothing wrong with hoping to find a reciprocating puzzle piece that matches right...
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bellensebastian:
Oh my I am going to expire from boredom of the highest degree.
Please abruptly cease the rotation of this celestial body on it's axis and let me disembark.
Please abruptly cease the rotation of this celestial body on it's axis and let me disembark.
lilvia:
Oh, no. Not boredom! That is so sad...but don't worry, it shall end soon.
In other news, you inspired me to put Belle & Sebastian on my favourites list...how could I forget about my lovelies?
In other news, you inspired me to put Belle & Sebastian on my favourites list...how could I forget about my lovelies?
so i was reading savage-love, and i was identifying with the sexaholic twists. sex can definitely be the great escape. i have been seeing sex in some sort of twisted light. fuck i feel like today my head has come twisted half way off. i am uneasy and this weekend is going to be a great oppurtunity to bring it back to earth a bit....
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bellensebastian:
alright.
so me and the TTC.
i do not ride the TTC. there never has been reason to. i have a bike, a car and legs.. immidiate, interim and long distances are all covered. and for everything else there are cabs right?
well i actually rode the TTC when my license was pulled for unpaid parking tickets and the like.
and now i want to take the bus and subway trains around the city. basically, i need lessons on TTC. how to ride it, and where to go. how to avoid eye contact with the local toughs and which bum sings the best song for a dollar. maybe something about disembarking without getting caught in the door and dragged to my demise.
there should be a handbook. and their website just plain blows.
i have broken my promise to myself and promised to go on a date on sunday. it is just a shopping date, but she seems really nice. i will refrain from the cheese behaviour though and hopefully we will not do anything rash nor would i want a rash. i think it would be nice to find a person in that very spot that would allow for constant dates. why do i fill up the missing times with different people. why not just one person? it is what i want but girls are now boys in that they just want what they want and then to move on. bless them for that. yet still..
so me and the TTC.
i do not ride the TTC. there never has been reason to. i have a bike, a car and legs.. immidiate, interim and long distances are all covered. and for everything else there are cabs right?
well i actually rode the TTC when my license was pulled for unpaid parking tickets and the like.
and now i want to take the bus and subway trains around the city. basically, i need lessons on TTC. how to ride it, and where to go. how to avoid eye contact with the local toughs and which bum sings the best song for a dollar. maybe something about disembarking without getting caught in the door and dragged to my demise.
there should be a handbook. and their website just plain blows.
i have broken my promise to myself and promised to go on a date on sunday. it is just a shopping date, but she seems really nice. i will refrain from the cheese behaviour though and hopefully we will not do anything rash nor would i want a rash. i think it would be nice to find a person in that very spot that would allow for constant dates. why do i fill up the missing times with different people. why not just one person? it is what i want but girls are now boys in that they just want what they want and then to move on. bless them for that. yet still..
tori:
art work is mine. i've sold a bunch in the past, but haven't been doing much of it as of late as work is sucking out my soul and/or will to live depending on what day it is...
but yeah... gimme a day or two and i'll see what i can dig up and scan and send to you....
but yeah... gimme a day or two and i'll see what i can dig up and scan and send to you....
Indeed. I feel like the evil Stu from the Family guy program.
I think it is Thursday, and the gods have blessed me with Indian food and some amazing Pot.
good words.
you gotta have faith.
if you build it, they will come.
and fucking is a broad word that has many uses.
i know i will be fine because i am a nice person with the right attributes. love has found me before, in the guise of beautiful intellegent girls. so it must be available again to me. it has to just happen.
KCUF