bellensebastian

in the weather industry, it would be called a "mixed-bag".

in the emotional industry, it would be called "fokked".

essentially i have too much of one thing that everyone considers luxury.. well lots of things that everyone would consider luxury.. and as is always the case with the fairy tales and with the romance movies.. there is that one thing that i want that i cannot buy nor can i find.

love.

and like you said earlier on.. having faith that it will happen one day is crap. especially when every whim is normally instantly gratified in this instant gratification system.

i really need a new hobby because love-finding is not as good as rock polishing and cage-fighting hahaha.

the kitchen is my vice and my stadium lately. my little ghetto kitchen where wonders happen. i don't have a kitchen table though because i always cook for one for the most part. even having the boys over to watch the Hockey Game allows me the chance to cook. the boys don't want to drink red wine and their eyes are not beautiful like a romantic girl ha.

how is LL treating you ha. me = fun but still ugh. it is hard to have that slow motion moment AFTEr you have chatted and emailed and known what is happening. less stomach butterflies and more like masturbation? that is not fair for a description! but for the moment it is as it is.

my new computer parts are on the way!!

i am now officially a computer internerd.

this internerd status means that anyone can see me when i am cam-whoring from home.

countdown is on.

my excitement stems from not even being able to edit a photo or upload stuff from my digital camera etc.