Well.. today was about the last I should hear from the ex.
I told her that I have given her enough time, and that by now she should have found someplace safe to go to. She has her own place, but I have allowed her to have a set of keys to my apartment just in case she needed a quick place to get away to in case of an emergency.
I also had set her up with a line of credit at the bank to stabilize her scholastic edeavours. I told her that with me in the market for a home, and with us not actually being a couple, that it might be prudent for me to retract this also. She waffled on that though. And finally.. all of her crap that has been in the trunk of my car for these months.. I shall courier to her in Waterloo when she returns there for school. Until then, storage..
I feel so cruddy but I have to do this. She wanted a pseudo boyfriend. .someone to pay the bills, but not someone she could talk to anymore. She wanted an dorky hipster dooffus and a chiropractor as her boytoys. All the power to her. My fear is that she is going to get used up by someone with an asian fetish (both have admitted as such and she likes that attention apparently). People are driven by such strange ghosts.
I can only look forward now. I am glad this is behind me sort of. It will hurt for a bit.. but it is the closure tht I have been seeking for a few months.. and it is partially responsible for keeping me all messy.. well at least i have allowed it to keep me that way. And it will be weird for me to have cut these strings and I am glad.
Tonight is the meeting with the ex ex also. That should be fun, especially after she stumbled onto my journal here yikes. I am such a 'tard. I not only have the fabled 'tard strength.. but my capacities of the cranial variety are up there too. I hope it goes OK. and I hope I don't look like a slobbering ass out of all of this.
I feel relaxed, but I need a vacation I think. Cuba.. ? Montreal and Mt. Tremblant?? Somewhere.? Suggestions anyone (on vacation or how to beat my blues out of my brain with something less than a board with a nail in it?)??
I told her that I have given her enough time, and that by now she should have found someplace safe to go to. She has her own place, but I have allowed her to have a set of keys to my apartment just in case she needed a quick place to get away to in case of an emergency.
I also had set her up with a line of credit at the bank to stabilize her scholastic edeavours. I told her that with me in the market for a home, and with us not actually being a couple, that it might be prudent for me to retract this also. She waffled on that though. And finally.. all of her crap that has been in the trunk of my car for these months.. I shall courier to her in Waterloo when she returns there for school. Until then, storage..
I feel so cruddy but I have to do this. She wanted a pseudo boyfriend. .someone to pay the bills, but not someone she could talk to anymore. She wanted an dorky hipster dooffus and a chiropractor as her boytoys. All the power to her. My fear is that she is going to get used up by someone with an asian fetish (both have admitted as such and she likes that attention apparently). People are driven by such strange ghosts.
I can only look forward now. I am glad this is behind me sort of. It will hurt for a bit.. but it is the closure tht I have been seeking for a few months.. and it is partially responsible for keeping me all messy.. well at least i have allowed it to keep me that way. And it will be weird for me to have cut these strings and I am glad.
Tonight is the meeting with the ex ex also. That should be fun, especially after she stumbled onto my journal here yikes. I am such a 'tard. I not only have the fabled 'tard strength.. but my capacities of the cranial variety are up there too. I hope it goes OK. and I hope I don't look like a slobbering ass out of all of this.
I feel relaxed, but I need a vacation I think. Cuba.. ? Montreal and Mt. Tremblant?? Somewhere.? Suggestions anyone (on vacation or how to beat my blues out of my brain with something less than a board with a nail in it?)??
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As for the ex'es business, let it go. The only person losing here is you (by the sounds of it) and the quicker you cut the strings, the better. I'm not saying don't stay friends, but there's a line... a murky and hazy one, but it's there.