Alright.. I am turning into a fucking slug. Slowly working my way into slime.
What is up with that. I need to figure out why the fuck I am justifying my compulsive dating mentality. Why the hell can't I imagine myself alone? It is like I am hurting from my last girlfriend.. but I am not. What am I missing. I need to figure my shit out. Hopefully with the demi-private ramblings.. I simply LOL at myself because I really have no clue. With the exception of myself, how many people read this shit. I finally have a diary, and anyone can read it. Whatever. Why the hell do I want a relationship so bad.? Friends trying to hook me up. Girls where ever. And my eye is always looking for that perfect slow motion girl, walking and emenating creativity, thoughtfulness, the deep quality of a black fucking hole of enormous gravity?
Do I need medication like half of the fucking world. I need some self-discipline again. I am just a whore (jesus)!
What is up with that. I need to figure out why the fuck I am justifying my compulsive dating mentality. Why the hell can't I imagine myself alone? It is like I am hurting from my last girlfriend.. but I am not. What am I missing. I need to figure my shit out. Hopefully with the demi-private ramblings.. I simply LOL at myself because I really have no clue. With the exception of myself, how many people read this shit. I finally have a diary, and anyone can read it. Whatever. Why the hell do I want a relationship so bad.? Friends trying to hook me up. Girls where ever. And my eye is always looking for that perfect slow motion girl, walking and emenating creativity, thoughtfulness, the deep quality of a black fucking hole of enormous gravity?
Do I need medication like half of the fucking world. I need some self-discipline again. I am just a whore (jesus)!