well.. ignorance is bliss.
she has just left. this is the last time i will really see her before her trip.. before she embarks upon a really long journey and adventure. we both confessed our love. we both cried. and we both revelled in the idea that pain is good because without pain, pleasure would just suck dick.
still.
i love this girl. i have...
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she has just left. this is the last time i will really see her before her trip.. before she embarks upon a really long journey and adventure. we both confessed our love. we both cried. and we both revelled in the idea that pain is good because without pain, pleasure would just suck dick.
still.
i love this girl. i have...
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no clue 
analise:
life just wouldn't be as exciting if we always knew what the hell is going on. revel in the unknown. 
purephase:
What Veloria said. The known is boring.
Don't let it fool etc. A clue is fucking hard to get, believe you me. Some people struggle their whole lives, and well, you don't need me to tell you, they have no fucking clue what's going on.
It's not all it's cracked-up to be.
Don't let it fool etc. A clue is fucking hard to get, believe you me. Some people struggle their whole lives, and well, you don't need me to tell you, they have no fucking clue what's going on.
It's not all it's cracked-up to be.
today is proof that the world sucks dick.
i feel sorry for that kid's parents.
i feel sorry for that kid's parents.
back.
i just would like to give the world everything i have. there was this boy. he was too young to be pushing around a shopping cart full of blankets and crap. we walked by him and i noticed that there was the smallest cutest cat inside a little cave of blankets and he was petting its head as he steered the cart.
what it...
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i just would like to give the world everything i have. there was this boy. he was too young to be pushing around a shopping cart full of blankets and crap. we walked by him and i noticed that there was the smallest cutest cat inside a little cave of blankets and he was petting its head as he steered the cart.
what it...
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A) I met a girl.
B) She is young.
C) She told me that she only wanted something casual because her schooling and her parental restrictions would not allow her to have a boyfriend.
D) In essence, she had no time.
E) We became fast friends and she enjoyed passion.
F) She is only 19. I have to honest.
G) I am like John Lee...
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B) She is young.
C) She told me that she only wanted something casual because her schooling and her parental restrictions would not allow her to have a boyfriend.
D) In essence, she had no time.
E) We became fast friends and she enjoyed passion.
F) She is only 19. I have to honest.
G) I am like John Lee...
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krypto2:
Yah, emotions suck....David Crosby's "Triad" comes to mind..."But I don't really see, why can't we go on as three."
I can empathize, not sure how much more I can assist here. Emotional maturity is an 'x' factor in the make up of any person....and you never really ffind it's measure until the S^^^ hits the fan, in one way or another.
Acknowledge what was good about her ( the young one) and what was right about the relationship. Don't give in to hate, use the fo....oh, you know what I mean.
Good luck.
I can empathize, not sure how much more I can assist here. Emotional maturity is an 'x' factor in the make up of any person....and you never really ffind it's measure until the S^^^ hits the fan, in one way or another.
Acknowledge what was good about her ( the young one) and what was right about the relationship. Don't give in to hate, use the fo....oh, you know what I mean.
Good luck.
this is me with my heart swollen.
let me just say that emotion is a powerful entity. it flows and fills things, and can spoil or inflate beyond comprehension or safety.
it is definitely robotic for me.
this way nobody will get hurt by my experimentation and adventure. that way my interactions will affect me and only me.
i do have a secret love though....
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let me just say that emotion is a powerful entity. it flows and fills things, and can spoil or inflate beyond comprehension or safety.
it is definitely robotic for me.
this way nobody will get hurt by my experimentation and adventure. that way my interactions will affect me and only me.
i do have a secret love though....
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are girls more-prone to jealousy than boys?
boys fight it out, and potentially girls can passively aggressively vent it.
i really do not understand. especially girl-friends of a particular order. or is it that possessively minded girls are part of my circle of close friends?
this is really providing me with a challenging time.
boys fight it out, and potentially girls can passively aggressively vent it.
i really do not understand. especially girl-friends of a particular order. or is it that possessively minded girls are part of my circle of close friends?
this is really providing me with a challenging time.
database maintenance is stupid.
i realize this: 5:40pm
must return to work at 10pm until about 1am.
then home for a few winks and licks. then back at it at 8:00am.
i am a slave.
i realize this: 5:40pm
must return to work at 10pm until about 1am.
then home for a few winks and licks. then back at it at 8:00am.
i am a slave.
no:
Yes, yes you are.
I loved what you wrote about "giving." I am mostly a taker, but I take knowing full-well that you get off on it, making sure that you get off on it, showing you how much I like it. It works.
[Yes in response to you being beautiful. I should really speak more clearly]
[Edited on Mar 24, 2004 11:32PM]
I loved what you wrote about "giving." I am mostly a taker, but I take knowing full-well that you get off on it, making sure that you get off on it, showing you how much I like it. It works.
[Yes in response to you being beautiful. I should really speak more clearly]
[Edited on Mar 24, 2004 11:32PM]
analise:
i have thought about doing computer-based work...but then i realize that it would kill my enjoyment of computers just as my studying of literature has nearly killed my enjoyment of reading (for the time being.) funny how that works, eh? i think the shitty thing about doing computer work is the fact that it just...never...ends. there is always something to fix or change or whatever. which would be enough to drive me nuts. i really like the feeling of creating a finished product and then moving on.
hehe: "Who ain't a slave, tell me that?" --Moby Dick.
hehe: "Who ain't a slave, tell me that?" --Moby Dick.
i am a stupid "giver", not a "taker".
it is entirely born out of self interest and plain selfishness.
if i give you pleasure, it is because i get off on it. she figured it out right away quick.
it is entirely born out of self interest and plain selfishness.
if i give you pleasure, it is because i get off on it. she figured it out right away quick.
Strike that:
10:05am.
I am definitely a mess.
10:05am.
I am definitely a mess.
purephase:
?? 'splain.
Oh my. It is 10am. Context is me, here, in the office. No sidekick to kick holes in the side of the wall. Construction is going to start soon on my new office.. maybe. They city is hedging on the drawings and permits. Oh well. The light is at the end of the tunnel.
I have too much work to have this girl on my...
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Sunday: 4:40ish. finally home. brunch with a female companion ended with more hints at stuff i do not want. she is beautiful, she is cute, she is so freakin' driven.. yet she is not my girl at the moment. i think i have that in someone else. and that someone else is not a momentary girl. she is one of those enigmatic fucking blotches of...
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bellensebastian:
but there is one that is special. i literally feel my eyes elevate with a smile when i think of her. it is so stupid and gushy, but i don't care. i can't believe she likes me.
retsin:
i got all fancy like and fixed the problem!
Time moves on. The famous adage (though, I have serious doubts about how often it actually works) "If you truly love someone, let them get away. If they come back, then well, the ensuing sex will fucking rock."
Alright, the last part is my own addition, but I thought I'd go for levity. Sounds like you need a bit of it.
Good luck. All will be well (as much as it could be anyway).